cryingprincess

:) or :s

2006-07-30T20:18:00.000-07:00

Prelims are over,I'm just waiting for the results.I swear,I'm not loving my course--Nursing.
Umiral lang ang pagiging good girl ko that's why I took up Nursing because that's what my mom want,but aside from me not liking it, I'm really having a hard time coping up in Chemistry which is my major subject. I'm not that A student,I'm just an average student who happens to belong to the 3rd honor qualifier during my high school years but I swear,I'm doing my best but my best is really not enough. *sighs*

I think of shifting my course to MedTech which is somewhat related to Nursing.
Nursing course in Trinity needs to have at least 2.00 GWA which is difficult for me to achieve since I don't even like my course,wtf!I can't even imagine myself wearing that blue milkmaid uniform,ack!

Before taking up entrance examinations last school year,I really wanted to take up a course that suits my personality which is 'madaldal' and could showcase what I love to do--writing.
I love writing,I used to be a correspondent in our school paper during my last 2 years in high school and our school guidance councilor back in high school told me that I should take up Journalism or any course that could showcase my writing capabilities or my being 'madaldal'.

Should I or should not?shift course,that is.
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I just came home from Batangas with my family just this afternoon.
Yesterday,I'm with my cousins,Keng and Karlo heading at Arvy's house and guess who I saw?
It was him, Kevin (now I can blab his name), upon seeing me he hid at his brother's back and I heard his barkada and kuya teasing him "Kevin,ba't ka nagtatago?wala namang kakain sayo".
Maybe he thought I will come up to him and slap his face,LOL.
But I won't even waste my time for him.Actually,I didn't mind him,as in deadma. :p

But this morning,a news came to me that his grandmother passed away just this morning,
I should have visited their family along with my dad since his dad and my dad are friends and his dad is my ninong and his ate is the 'inaanak' of my dad.(what a small world noh?)
But we didn't because it was raining hard and were already off here in Manila.

Eventhough I'm mad at him,I feel sorry for him losing his lola,I know how much he loves his lola,I've seen that even were still together.Too bad,I can't comfort him in these times,I know how much he is hurting.I just wish that his 'girlfriend', Angel is there for him. *sighs*
My prayers are for his family and of course for him,he's been a part of my life for a year and half tho'.I still care for him but I'm moving on. :))

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Happy Birthday to my ever dearest cousin.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY Christ Jean Salazar. :))

Because of You .

2006-07-18T20:18:00.000-07:00

I have made a new layout.The lyrics of the song is kinda sad and the colors are not happy. =x
I hope this would be my last rambling about you. *crosses fingers*

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Because of You I have learned to laugh again and smile again.
I have learned that not all guys are insensitive and liar. I have learned to trust again with all of my heart.
You made me feel how is it to be a princess in my own fairytale, that I have my own
happy ever after ending.

But not to soon, you destroyed my own little fairytale. You have let Cinderella be in her ragged clothes again.
You let my evil step sister be a hindrance in my happily ever after story.
The wicked evil step sister has gotten all of you from me.

Because of you I learned not to trust others again.
Because of you I believed that love can never be fair.
You took away my princess' dream. You have let me live in a lie.
Because of you I, again is drowned in pain.
Tears welled down from my eyes suffering from grief and sadness.

You didn't taught me how to say the word "goodbye".
You never showed me the way back on my 'old world' where I used to live peacefully.
Because of you I don't know now how to be happy again.
Because of you I lost my confidence in myself.
Because of you I learned to hate myself which seems to be not good.
Because of you I don't let anyone to wipe away the tears that you caused.

Everytime I think of her with you,its killing me.
I can't be saved from the loneliness I feel.
I hate myself for losing you although you seem to be happy with her.

Because of you hatred is eating all of me.
Because of you loneliness is all what I feel.
Because of you I had sleepless nights.
Because of you I never played with my pet dog again.
Because of you I never loved color blue again.
Because of you my life is now incomplete.

Because of you I am afraid to LOVE again. =(

Bestfriend's dayout

2006-07-05T18:27:00.001-07:00

I met with my besfren,Angelo at Gateway. We agreed last night that we would meet up and have lots of kwentuhan. I have no class naman today so we met up at around 4 in the afternoon. He took a cab ride from UST to Gateway.[mayaman ang intsik.LOL]

Ayun,ang tangkad na niya. He stands 6 foot tall. Ang liit ko nga kanina nung nakapila kami sa KFC eh.
I really had fun with him, sobrang na-miss ko yung kakulitan niya and of course he, himself. =)
He looked so thin in his uniform, ang laki kasi ng uniform niya kaya mas lalo s'ya naging payat. =p

He's the special man in my life aside from my dad. He knows everything about me, just one look in my eye, he already knows what I'm thinking of and what I'm currently feeling.
He's the first one to know about what that dork has done unto me.
Eventhough he's pilyo, always teasing me (that's one of his hobby,LOL) I know that he really cares for me because it shows naman eh. I've found a kuya-slash-bestfriend in him. I love him sooooo.

And my besh, Hannah is really lucky to have someone like my besfren and vice versa.

who won't love him eh?=)

New Look,Old Me..

2006-06-23T21:24:00.000-07:00

I made a new layout, I was inspired of Ate Marj's layout before featuring Precious Moments. =)
Eventhough I'm not good in making a wonderful layout, I'm proud naman of my works.

College life has already started, I'm enjoying every single minute of it with my new found friends but still, I miss my old friends, old teachers and old school,hmm, maybe because I'm not yet used with my new 'life', but I'll get used to it as the day passes by.Speaking of old school, I went to Immaculate yesterday since we had a 4 hour vacant because our Math prof wasn't around so I decided to visit my former school with my new friends, luckily my friends were allowed by Ate Lux (guard) to enter.There are so many changes in the campus itself, the chapel was transferred to the old SCB and Marian Gazette office and the former was transferred beside the activity room. I had a talk with my Eco teacher, Mrs.Viernes, she told me about the some changes in my dear alma mater, new Director, new rules and only few clubs are left because they now had electives.
First year students are having Public Speaking, News Writing for the Second Year, Statistics for the Juniors and Calculus for the Seniors. At least they have been prepared earlier.
I also got to meet up with my Adviser when I was in my Senior Year. In fairness, I miss her 'daily sermon' LOL.
Whew!I miss high school.

I'm starting to get used in being single, after a year and so of having someone beside me, I have to face the fact that everything's over, that there's no one there to check me every hour since I know he's definitely having fun with his 'own damn life'. There's so much hatred in me, the hatred that covers up my love for him, I want him to realize what he had lost but what for?He won't even care. Honestly, I don't want to be bitter but I can't help it, there's hatred but I can't deny the fact that I'm still in love with him. Yeah,moving on would be the best for me but it would be hard, you can't just throw away the memories we shared, laughters and tears.
Why does it have to be this way?Should it always be me that should be left hanging? Why does it have to be always unfair for me?I got so many questions running in my mind but I don't know where to find the answer or whether I'm still going to find it.

I'm just wishing that maybe, maybe someday, I'll be spending Precious Moments with someone who'll love me unconditionally, someone who'll love me with all of his heart, that would take care of me and would cherish me from the rest of his life. I hope that someday would not be too soon..*sighs*

2006-06-18T20:06:00.000-07:00

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY to all fathers out there especially to my one and only boy..

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY Daddy.I Love You. =)

After a year and so...

2006-06-12T18:56:00.000-07:00

The subject says it all,after a year and so,I'm officially single.Why?
Let me share some details.

A girl sent me a message this morning telling me craps.At first I didn't believe her since in the first place I don't even know her.And then I texted 'him' asking about that issue,syempre sino namang tanga ang aamin sa kasalanan nya?pero na-confirm ko na tinwo time nya ko for almost four months,it was confirmed to me by my cousin's boyfriend.

The pain I'm feeling hurts like hell,ilang beses ko s'ya pinatawad,ilang beses ko s'ya binigyan ng second chance pero hindi niya nakuhang baguhin yung ugali.He made me look stupid and dumb.Feeling ko yung dignidad ko ang nawala,sobrang ginawa niya talaga akong tanga.

I loved him so much na halos wala ng natira para sa'kin.

BRRRR

2006-06-07T18:31:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was our orientation,I was with Kirstin and swear,it was really a boring orientation,sana hindi na lang kami pumunta ni Tin.

And I thought,ayos na schedule ko,only to find our that my Chem Lab and Soci-Anthropology class,clashes.
Yung room lang for Socio class ang inayos nila pero hindi yung oras.GRRR.
Tapos every monday hanggang 6:30 ako because of my PE class,I thought hanggang 5 lang,peste kasi,yung 1NU24 lang ang nagkakasabit ang sched apart from other sections.

Wala na akong time para bumalik sa school,kasi dami ko pa dapat gawin.Sana lang maging okey sa first day of class.

Updates

2006-06-05T02:47:00.000-07:00

I've been away for a while because I'm busy enjoying the last weeks of summer vacation.
I had the best summer ever.I got to spend it with my family and relatives and of course with my yubee.=)

Speaking of my yubee,we just celebrated our first anniv last June 3.Im in Batangas that time,since his family's there kaya andun din s'ya.:D
It was fun,I wish of spending more years with him.

Last May 31,our town celebrated Carossa and Suman Festival.
We had street party that night,three consecutive nights yun kaya lagi kaming puyat magpipinsan,but we enjoyed though.

haaai naku,Gusto ko pang magkwento kaya lang tinatamad na ko,some other time na lang,I need to hit the sheets na..Nytie everyone,aay,morning na pala.=D

2006-05-15T18:49:00.000-07:00

AFTER A LONG TIME

Yes,the subject says it all.I've been away for almost a month,well actually almost whole summer.
Im just busy doing some stuffs and I just check my blog once in a while but don't update at all.LOL

My life during summer is pretty exciting,I'm always out with my friends or cousins.
I go out at least 5 times a week, I just stay home on weekends,in front of my ever reliable computer,friendster-ing or teentalking.

Summer vacation has always been fun.I got to spend more time with my cousins back in Batangas.
It's the time of the year when we,cousins at father side,get to spend much longer and fun time together.=)

If you're going to ask me about my love life.I'm doing absolutely fine.I'm contented on what's going on in my lovelife with my yubee,hhmm,he doesn't want me to blab his name on my blog because sabi niya ayaw daw niya ng publicity,feeling niya artista s'ya.LOL

I still got one more moth to enjoy my vacation since on the 13th of June,Im officially a college student.=)
I have no classes during Wednesdays,gimik time.LOL
But the time of my subjects clashes,it only occured in our section,but it's already fixed and I'll be getting it on the 6th of June during our class' orientation.

Who have already seen Poseidon on cinemas?I want to watch it with of course,my yubee,kaya lang short kami parehas sa money this time around,puro kasi kami lakwatsa e,yan tuloy!=p

Check my multiply and please do comment too.Thanks. :)

2006-04-10T20:39:00.001-07:00

BLOG ON-LEAVE!!!!
VACATION MUNA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-04-10T20:39:00.000-07:00

BLOG ON-LEAVE!!!!
VACATION MUNA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-03-31T17:58:00.000-08:00

haha,im not yet done with my layout so i'll just stick with this one muna for the mean time.
oooh,officially,high school's over but i'm not yet done with my clearance kaya my teacher didn't issue my report card and my other credentials kaya babalik ako dun sa monday with my yubby.

okei,so graduation went fine,i got my loyalty award and best in attendance,haha.i earned points for that huh?and still i belong to the highest rankings in our batch,nasa 50% ako.
!for the grad pics,just check out my multiply u'll see it there.

2006-03-22T20:25:00.000-08:00

LAST DAY

Today,school's over, but my clearance isn't done yet. My activity coordinator don't want to sign my clearance because I'm not yet done with the task she had given me. Pano ko naman kasi gagawin yung pinapagawa nya sakin if yung trabaho na dapat gagawin ko is hindi binibigay sa'kin, wtf?!

Ayun, after class we had our merienda @ Gateway. Tpos we just strolled around btw, I was with Angelo,Renee',Hannah and my tubby..=)
My dad fetch me @ Hannah's pad since my tubby will be meeting with his mom.

Pagdating ko dito sa bahay, tyaka lang nag-sink in sa'kin na graduation na talaga sa Friday, na hindi ko na makakasama mga ka-batch ko next school year since will be goin to different school. alam nio ba, ang dami kong gusto baguhin during mg four years in high school but we can't turn back time anymore, we just have to live with the current situation and be ready for the future.

Gawd! You'll gotta really loveand hate high school.

2006-03-18T23:18:00.000-08:00

AFTER A LONG TIME

yesss..after a long time,nakapag-post na rin ako..na-miss ko toh..=)
anyways,i'll tell stories soon..gawa muna ako bagong layout aight?im bored na with this one eh..hehehe...missed you guys!!

2006-02-05T20:47:00.000-08:00

Recap

What happened?Many things happened!
Last Wednesday,Hannah and I went at St.Paul's college QC to inquire and get an application form after that we went to FEU to submit Hannah's application form and she'll be taking her entrance exam on the 11th which is actually Angelo's birthday.I didn't submit mine since I don't have the pictures and I haven't filled out the application form yet so I just accompanied her.

Have you heard the news that there was a rally @ Morayta?Actually were there.We have already crossed the street because were already starving and may jollibee sa tapat ng FEU.Grabe,that was our first time to see a rally near us.Thank God nothing bad happened.

FRIDAY:February01

We had our first friday mass.It was normal for us ICCSians since every month were having that but not for us Seniors.After tha mass,our principal let us stay in the church for a while.After the lower batches had left the church our principal talked to the whole graduating class.

Suddenly,I felt the pressure that was on us,Seniors.
Only two weeks from now we'll be having our finals and actually next week will be our Mastery Test.Gawd,ang bilis.Feeling ko nga wala pa akong natututunan sa 4th quarter eh.We still be having our defense para sa thesis namin sa English at ang dami pang requirements na dapat ayusin.Naloloka na nga kami!

But the sad part is,2 of my classmates are not sure of graduating because they have backloads and they're not even attending their backload subjects.I pity them because ayaw ko naman na grumaduate na makikita ko yung 2 sa classmate ko na hindi magmamarch.Syempre iba yung feeling na lahat kayo will be graduating.It'll be a relief.I just wish them luck,marami pa ring pwedeng mangyari and I wish all of us the graduating class of 2006 will be together,marching with our diploma in our hands.

Ok,also last friday was MYMP's concert,it was actually the repeat of their last year's concert.After our dismissal,I went at Hannah's pad because she'll be changing her clothes syempre alangan namang were in our gala uniform while watching the concert.LOL.

So after changing into her civilia clothes,we hurried back here,sa bahay.
We ate dinner muna then I changed to my civilian clothes,we have the same outfit nga eh,the only difference is our top,were both in shorts,ung above knee.

Actually that night out was a double date,LOL.Hannah with Angelo and me with guess who?my Yubee.=)
Were comfortbale with each other since we know naman each other.
But during the concert were speechless,because Hannah and Angelo was teasing us,kaya we felt awkward having each other around.We didn't have that holding hands thingie but he offered his jacket,yiikkeee.And I was leaning on his shoulders and him on mine.That moment was just so perfect.

2006-01-31T20:12:00.000-08:00

Sana I didn't come to school na lang.We didn't have our regular classes and were on our PE uniform to conclude the celebration of Boys and Girls week.We just had a program during the morning and the faculty and staff had relays and ball games specifically,volleyball.

But I did something funny but irritating for someone.LOL
As I was seating in the bleachers with Hannah and Lucchi,someone was behind me and it was Karlo.So we talked,he teased me because 'he' was behind him[Karlo].From a far,my two maldita friends saw Karlo's girlfriend and they told me to irritate her.You know what I did?

I leaned back on Karlo since I was in front of him and his hands was on my shoulders.LOL.Then Karlo noticed his girlfriend was staring at me so he suddenly took his hands off me.I know that his girlfriend was alrady staring at me but I didn't mind.I'm a bad girl.LOL.
Lucchi and Hannah on the other side,instead of stopping me from what I'm doing,they joined me,as in kinunsinti nila ako..hehehe.

Lucchi told me that it was my day to be even,sweet revenge huh?LOL
Definitely it really was my day.After saying sh*ts behind me?
Yeah,I admit that I was so mean to that thing at least they know how it feels to be irritated using your partner eh?
In my case,they're telling it to my face that Karlo didn't chose me because he didn't like me and that they're much prettier than me[karlo's gf and his gf's bestfriend].Now,look who's laughing?*evil grin*

Off the topic,Hannah and I will be going to St.Paul QC tomorrow to get an application form for college and after that we'll be going at FEU to submit our application forms and of course after that we'll go malling.
Beshie's day out tomorrow.

I'm excited.LOL

Oh btw,it's my juicy fruits' birthday today.
Happy Birthday Alvin Geronimo Vargas!=)

2006-01-30T19:48:00.000-08:00

My day went fine.I'm absolutely feelin' much better now unlike last Thursday.Hmm,Angelo,Peps,Ericson,Mark and him wasn't around because they had a basketball game.It was a game for a cause,it'll be for our APAA(Assistand Principal for Academic Affairs),Mrs.Lontoc,the sister-in-law of my adviser because right now she's suffering from cancer,so please do pray for her.

Anyways,were not going to have our regular classes tomorrow because there would be a program on the morning and an exhibition game during the afternoon.Just wanted to share.LOL.^_^

oh,have I alrady mentioned that Abby and me are on talking terms again?Well,not in personal but we do communicate through text messaging,I think we should forget the past and live with the current situation.
But still,we can't bring the closeness as in the tight bond unlike before because somehow there's still pain inside for the both of us.
But i do miss her,of course,9 years of friendship?It's definitely a lifetime memory but we still have that friendship but as what I mentioned,not that friendship thing we had before.But at least,were ok now and I don't have that hard feeling whenever our path crosses.

2006-01-29T20:32:00.000-08:00

WARNING: long post ahead

Woooooooohhhhhhhhhhh......i super missed blogging.
my pc got busted kasi kaya hindi ako nakakapag-update,sorry guys.=)

ano ba mga nangyari sa life ko?dami eh,i'll just blog what's interesting for me.

JANUARY14
it was my 17th birthday =)
i had classes that day,it was saturday and as expected many have greeted me on my special day at marami ding nagpapalibre sa'kin including ung mga classmates ko na loko2,hehehe.

i went home early,coz half day lang class namin nun.
upon arriving home,my cousins were already here at our house waiting for me,na-miss ko sila,sobra!tapos ayun,i helped for the preparation for my birthday celebration.my friends and classmates arrived at around 3 syempre kasama si 'gumiworms'.

and may nangyari na unexpected,kArlO (ung love ko b4) went here to talk to me since i'm avoiding him because his girlfriend are talking sh*ts about me.tapos ayun,i explained to him my side,dumaan lang s'ya for that matter,dapat talaga invited s'ya pero hindi natuloy since may nangyari ngang ganung issue.after talking,he greeted me hapi birthday and sori daw kasi wla s'yang gift for me pero i said it was fine because his greeting was enuf,sabi n'ya kiss na lnag daw pero syempre ayoko kasi naman diba,kakahiya tyaka nasa labas kami ng gate namin noh!tapos hinila nya ko sa likod ng isang van (no malice ha!) tapos he pulled me and kissed me,grabe na-shock ako kasi lips un noh,pero smack lang naman but the thought of him kissing me?grabe i really didn't expect na he would do that,i blushed after,then he went home na.

gumiworms on the other hand was so as in super sweet.
i really had fun on my 17th birthday!=)

JANUARY16-19
it was our 3rd periodic exams.results?naahhh,i got low grades this time.silly me,i didn't study that hard!i still have a month to go before our finals,promise i'll do good and this time it is for real.=)

JANUARY23
we had our defense for our investigatory project in Physics,it went fine.
i was able to answer the questions of the panelist.=)

JANUARY26
I cried!yes,as in hagulgol.why?i found out that 'he' is telling 'iloveu' to her,syempre nag-react ako since ok na kami diba,pero were not a couple.yes,wala akong karapatan magalit tyaka mag-react since hindi nga nya ako girlfriend pero lagi nya sinasabi sa'kin na i shouldn't have to worry coz wala daw talaga xa gusto dun kay girl tapos bigla kong malalaman na ganun.then that night,he texted me,he asked me what's my problem,i told him na he should ask himself blahblah.

pero napagusapan na namin just this day and were ok na naman.di ko lang alam kung ano mangyayari this coming days.let's just see.

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the sweetest thing u can do for a friend is to take care of him.
the coolest thing u can do is to always be there for him.
the worst thing u can do?
is to pretend he is ur friend when in fact u already love him.
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2006-01-04T21:04:00.000-08:00

UPDATES

2006 nah!wuuuuuhhhoo..time flies so fast huh?!..and 10 more days to go i'll be on my 17th year already,gawd I feel so old.

So our new year's celebration went fine,we welcomed 2006 with luces,roman candles and fountain, my cousins even had that 'five star',it was far different from last year because last year we were complete,i mean all the siblings of my father are here in the Philippines,but not unlike this year,they're in Russia for some work.

Hmmm,I don't have any new year's resolution,I'll just definitely go with flow.So year 2006,please be nicer this time please??

JANUARY 4

Hmm,today was the formal opening of the school year 2006.We did nothing as in wala kaming ginawa sa class but I still enjoyed the day because I had seen 'gumiworms' again =)

Tomorrow will have the normal routine,class discussions,seatworks,homeworks and quiz.Oh did I mention quiz?I think I hafta run now,I still got to review for tomorrow's quiz on Ekonomiks,eventho' I totally hate that!

2005-12-29T21:52:00.000-08:00

I went out kanina with Angelo and Hannah tapos I meet up with Janie,Aicx,Steph and Ruth,they're my fellow teentalkers,ang pretty nila.=)

Kaya lang we haven't got the chance to talk kasi I have my own company eh,we agreed na lang to meet up again next time.=)

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Have you ever missed someone yet he's not yours?I mean you miss someone so special for you but hindi mo alam if special ka para sa kanya?
I'm on that stage right now,I miss him so damn much and yet he doesn't know it,even if he knows it,I wonder if he would care!

gawd,my all of my friends knew how special he is to me,that I'm willing to do everything just to see him happy but I think he doesn't appreciate the things I'm doing for him,tignan nio naman halos awayin na ko ni ****
dahil pinagtatanggol ko s'ya sa kanya but parang wala lang din sa kanya yun,xhit di ko na alam kung ano ang pakikitungong gagawin ko sa kanya?!!!

i think he only see me as a friend/sister,nothing more,nothing less
but he tells me sweet mushy stuffs,when were together we act as a couple even if there is really no commitment between us.cnasbi nya im so special daw for him,toooooo special pero whenever were around our friends hindi nya pinaparamdam sa'kin na special ako,pag kami lang talagang dalawa!!!

haaiii,alam mo ba kung ano nararamdaman ko ngayon?
im so worried about u,i wonder if ur fine or not,if ur happy or sad.
kung alam mo lang sana what im going through.
u make me feel special whenever were both together but if were with our friends,suddenly u act weird,u just treat me as if im just ur pal

what's with u ba talaga?.if u don't like me and then tell it directly to me wag mo an iparamdam na special ako para sayo kung hindi naman kasi mas lalo lang akong nasasaktan kahit na pinipigilan kong masaktan kasi in the first place wala akong karapatan diba?o baka naman manhid ka lang talaga at di mo nararamdaman yung sakit na pinaparamdam mo sa'kin ngayon?
or ur just afraid to show your feelings?ewan ko sa'yo,ang hirap mo maintindihan!

sana gawin mo na lang masama ung image mo pag nasa harap mo ko so that i'll have my reason not to like u anymore,pero di ko rin maintindihan sarili ko,kahit anong kagaguhan ang ginagawa mo sa loob ng klasrum,kahit madalas ka napapahiya dahil tarantado ka,gusto pa rin talaga kita,in fact mahal na nga kita pero hindi na dapat kasi alam ko naman na walang mangyayari.

sana talaga hindi na kita nakilala.....

2005-12-28T18:51:00.000-08:00

ITS BEEN LONG

yeah,its been hella long since i last updated my blog and im so sorry im just too busy attending christmas parties and eating lots of food..harhar
anyways,my christmas was fine,i received many gifts and lots of money nyahaha,and im gonna spend it tomorrow,i have already spend the half of my 'pamasko' and tomorrow im going out with my friends @ gateway and janie[teentalker] will meet up tomorrow too,hopefully.=)

ooohh,new year is approaching,2006 na!and on the 14th i'll be @ sweet seventeen na..hahaha still sweet?lolx..

oohh,i gotta run now,were going out to have dinner byeeee..

2005-12-07T20:39:00.000-08:00

Our field demonstration went great!SENIORS won!yuuuuuhhooo!!
We were thrilled seeing our batchmates grooving to the beat of different songs.Congratulations to us,SENIORS,we did what is expected of us.=)

During the end of the exhibition,when the cheerdancers was about to form a pyramid,we were damn horrified.Nina,fell down from the pyramid,as in ang lakas,but still todo pose pa rin s'ya after falling down and after their performance she was directly brought to the clinic and that's where she cried,good thing is that there's no fracture she was examined at a nearby hospital.

The seniors were given a special award,best theme and an individual award was given to Benjamin Montenegro of IV-OLG as the best performer,he's a good dancer tho'.
The juniors was expecting that they would win since the crowd was cheering for them but too bad we still emerged as the CHAMPION and what is more disappointing is that the sophies had the 1st place instead,well that's how a competition goes.=)

Again,CONGRATULATIONS TO SENIORS 05-06!

*wohoooooooooohhhhhhoooooohhhhhhhhh..SENIORS THE BEST!

2005-12-03T15:51:00.000-08:00

hmmm,hindi naman halata na adik na ko sa paggawa ng layout kahit di kagandahan noh?hehehe..weak ang drama ng lola mo ngayon,lam nio kung bakit?because that GIRL(read my previous posts) is talking xhits behind my back and she's also doing that to HIM!darn it!wats her problem ba?
sinumbong ko xa,well not actually sumbong,i just told bebe wat i've learned and bebe told it to HIM,he's on my side btw.

oh and i think i failed on my mastery test in math,i just hate numbers,really,still there's periodical test coming and i'll do better.PROMISE.it's not yet too late diba?and i know that God will always be there to help me

2005-11-28T20:52:00.000-08:00

kakauwi ko lang,i went to my derma to have my monthly cleaning and that includes pricking of pimples.ouch!
anyways,tomorrow we'll have classes again,back to normal as usual.
hopefully makakalipat na ako ng upuan bukas,at sana dun ulit sa dati.*crosses fingers*

i bought myself a blue ponytail,suited for my immaculate blue daily uniform.on december1,2,5&6 will be our 3rd mastery test,time flies so fast huh?!and then on december7 will be our field demo,GO SENIORS!=)

nuh pa ba?ayun,december8 will be our feast day Immaculate Conception half-day and the following day no classes yehhheeey!!tapos dec13 MAPSA cultural show which will be held on Araneta Coliseum,I already have my ticket upperboxA
kaya to those who'll be watching the cultural show specifically those who goes to a MAPSA school,kindly inform me para meet tayo dun.

haaii,im going to see HIM again!

2005-11-26T20:27:00.000-08:00

new layout,suited for xmas eh?wala lang,got bored this afternoon so i decided to make a layout,not that ugly naman diba?

so how's my week?it went fine but what i've said on my previous post,our adviser transferred me to row1 so I'm far from him na,and he told me na he misses me na raw,my laughs,yung mga kurot ko...awww,I miss him too so muccccchhhh..

yesterday,he sat beside me since our subject teacher wasn't around and then we had this chit-chat,updating on what's going on with each other's lives and then I saw him wearing the necklace I gave him for his birthday last nov17,I told him that I'm touched because he appreciates the stuff I gave him and he told me that he too was touch because I let him feel that he's special for me.if only i could tell him that he was sooooo special for me.*sighs*
yesterday was also the issuance of cards,and thank God I have good grades and I belong to the top20 in our class,I just dunno what's my specific ranking.=)

So I talked to our adviser to let me go back in my previous seat,of course I told her that I'm not comftable in my place and i got a skin asthma which is in fact true and my mom talk to her also so she told me that she'll transfer me to my "old seat" on Tuesday since we got no classes on Monday,oooohhhh long weekend..=)

nga pala,may kwento pa ko,it also happened yesterday.

CLE time,were in the activity room,watching a documentary film or whatever u may call it and angelo,my besfren,asked me a favor if i can massage his nape,syempre besfren ko kaya i agreed,he was sitting right next to HIM and I was sitting next to Justine so ayun,hinihilot ko na s'ya then Justine asked me to stop because kanina pa SIYA tingin ng tingin kay Angelo and nakatingin sa ginagawa ko kay Angelo,Justine told me na nagseselos s'ya,I didn't mind her since I know it isn't true as if naman noh?!SO ayun,i continued doing my business and I,myself noticed that HE was staring at what im doing,Angelo and I,still i didn't mind kasi I know there's no reason for him to get jealous diba?pero on the back of my mind,what if nagseselos nga s'ya?does it means na He also feels something for me,pero syempre I'm not jumping into any conclusions kasi diba,baka ako din ang masaktan sa huli.

waaaaaahhhhhh

2005-11-24T19:15:00.000-08:00

If you have read my previous post on my journal in my multiply account you'll probably know what I'm talking about.
Errr,I wanna go back sa dati kong upuan,why?

>allergic ako sa chalk dust
>nasa tabi ako ng pintuan,lagi akong nakatulala
>mainit sa pwesto ko
>naiirita ako
>naaaburido ako
>di ako comfortable
>na-mimiss ko na SIYA

yeah,one of the reasons why I wanted to go back on my previous seat is because of him.bigla na lang s'ya naging tahimik mula ng nilipat ako ng upuan ni Ms.Lontoc and I swear,hindi s'ya ganun before.
I tried to talk to my adviser but I couldn't find her during dismissal time and break time,yoko naman na in between classes kasi magiging issue sa classroom namin na kaya lang ako lilipat is just because of him pero yeah,kasama yun pero HINDI TALAGA AKO COMFORTABLE SA PWESTO KO!
so tomorrow,issuance of cards,I'm gonna talk to her and my mom will talk to her too as well.Haaaaaai,sana..........

He misses me na daw.....

What happened to what?

2005-11-21T20:10:00.000-08:00

November17(Thursday)
It was his birthday.As what I've told u in my previous post,he invited to me to go their house with some of our classmates to have some "salo-salo".

So ayun,many of his friends from other sections came,but halos lahat classmate nya,kami2x taga OLL.We rode a cab in going there,I'm with Maan,Kazelene,Hannah and Angelo inside the taxi,HE on the other hand was with his friends on another cab.

Upon arriving in their house,nahihiya pa ko,sobra!and I really dunno why,hehehe.I met her mom,actually Ericson introduced me to his mom as his "girlfriend" hehehe,her mom actually believed that her son and I have a thing going on.

To sum it all up,his birthday celebration was a blast and I did have a good time with HIM.=)

November18(Friday)

xet!ang sakit ng legs ko,we had our Disciplinary Exercises sa CAT and I swear,pamatay s'ya!
So after nun,umuwi na kami ni Jem dito sa bahay to prepare for the MYMP's concert.
Grabe!ang saya ng concert,I was with him na naman,sayang lang there are no pictures taken,we enjoyed each others company kasi eh,hehehe.
Basta ang saya talaga sobra!May repeat pa,sa Feb3,we'll going to watch it ulit!=)

November19(Saturday)

We went at Duty Free to buy some stuffs for the Christmas Season,early Christmas shopping.=)
I enjoyed strolling and I was so damn tired upon arriving home.
Tapos,sing-along pa kami dito,napaos ako.=)

Monday(Today)

It's Jem's,Ces' and my ex-bestfriend-Abby's birthday.I actually planned to greet her but fate didn't allow me.We dine ar KFC,Ces' treated us [hana,jissele,maan,lester and I] ang saya!Then Jem will have it on I think on Friday.

Recap..

2005-11-16T19:33:00.000-08:00

Last Saturday,Hana and I went @ Miriam College to get an application form for the entrance examination in the said school but things didn't worked out that way,wala palang office pag weekdays,buti na lang bago pa kami lumabas ng campus ng MC andun pa si Daddy,he's waiting pala kasi ang alam n'ya sandali lang kumuha ng application form so he dropped us off sa Gateway mall then ikot2 muna kami ni bie[hana] sa Gateway then we both agreed to go to Galleria,so we rode a cab.

Upon arriving,kumain muna kami sa Popeye's since were both starving na and then ayun,window shopping,btw,may nakita akong skirt sa Baboo,ang cute n'ya,haaaai babalikan ko yun.[gudlak!].Oh and I bought something for myself,a pair of earrings from Ang Gara and a cellphone accessory from Funky Finds.=)

Tapos ayun,before kami pumunta dito sa bahay,we stopped by muna sa Araneta,then sa ticketnet office,wala ng available na upperbox a/b para sa concert ng MYMP sa Friday,so general admission na lang,but at least meron diba,tyaka yung music naman ang pinunta namin dun eh.=p
I'll be with Angelo and Hannah[again],Jem,Ericson and HIM.=)

Oh,speaking of HIM,birthday n'ya bukas and he invited me to go to their house,yiiiiikkkeee.=)

IM PROUD!

2005-11-11T22:16:00.001-08:00

Yeah,I made this layout all by myself,yiiiiheee.&smile
The codes are provided by ate connie,thanks sis!=)
Bakit ganyan?uuhhhmm,LSS ko kasi "In My life" that's why I decided to give it a shot,and at last nagawa ko.=)

Not bad for a beginner eh?hihihi.=D
Oooh,I'm going to Miriam College tomorrow with Hannah,were going to get application form for college and then we'll go at the ticketnet office to buy tickets for the MYMP concert on Friday,sana di pa s'ya sold out.*crossed-fingers*

If you'd ask how't it going between HIM and me?uhuh,it's still complicated,soooo complicated.

IM PROUD!

2005-11-11T22:16:00.000-08:00

The thing called LOVE

2005-11-10T21:12:00.000-08:00

So it's the 10th day of November and yes,it's the first year anniv of my bie and my besfren,Hannah and Angelo,how I adore that couple,they're sooo cute.=)
Gelo,gave Hannah a locket with their baby picture on it,they're like siblings,I swear.^_^
And bie,on the other hand gave Angelo a letter since she got no more bucks left in her wallet,sounds cliche but it's the thought that counts right?How I wish my lovestory would be just the same as their's but it wouldn't turn out that way.*sighs*
My wish for the both of them is to stay in love and don't let any trials or obstacles put them down,just believe in the thing called LOVE.=)

Hmmmm,lemme see.LOVE,a four letter word but has a deep meaning.
LOVE is the greatest thing on Earth,w/o LOVE,we wouldn't be here,I wouldn't be here.LOVE is so great that it makes anyone happy,smiling until their lips would be swollen (would it be possible?)
But eventhough love makes the world go round,it makes people crazy.
It makes people do crazy things that they didn't imagined that they can do.LOVE,it hurts people.=(
Sad as it may seem,but there are people living in this world who don't seem to understand the meaning of LOVE,I mean True Love.
They are so insensitive,they don't mind what other's might feel,or if they do,they are abusing those people who love them since they know that those people would do everything just to please them,since they love they love that person.But that's so unfair,you're doing everything for the one you love just to please him or just to make him/her happy but they don't repay the kindness that that person is showing him/her,even a simple thank you.

Haaaaai,why am I saying all of these?wala lang,I just feel so confused.HE is showing me extra sweetness,he shares mushy moments with me that he doesn't share with others.Then just this afternoon he's asking me for a kiss,I didn't take it seriously since I know that it was just for fun but I can see right through his eyes that he is so damn serious.Damn!those eyes?I fell in love with that eyes since the very first moment our eyes met,I knew I was feeling something for him,it wasn't infatuation,because if it was then,I shouldn't be acting this weird or crazy?whatever you want to call it,but I swear I'm willing to do everything just to make him happy even if it means sacrificing my own happiness.Oh,how I wish my I'll have fairytale lovelife.*sighs*

2005-11-09T20:45:00.000-08:00

We had our awarding ceremony today to conclude our Intramurals.
Our section,didn't have the chance to grab awards for the team sports,specifically in Vball girls and boys and Basketball respectively,but at least our section had 3 champions in individual games,Table Tennis girls,my bebe,Nina won =)
Badminton doubles,Claudine and Ruby and Marathon[girls] Nimfa and were pround of 'em.=)

A news came to me that someone likes HIM too.At first it was fine with me since there really is something about HIM that makes him admirable,but when I heard that the girl was actually the firts one who's making the "first move" I was like,"duh!babae?ok lang s'ya"
And then yesterday,when our teacher wasn't around,HIM,Peps,Jhey and Angelo are having a conversation about that girl,"binubuyo" nila SIYA na patulan yun since that girl is known to be rich and ahem that asset,gawd!they're so mean,lalo na si Angelo,alam naman n'ya kung ano ang nararamdaman ko para sa KANYA and the fact na besfren ko s'ya pero I understand him naman,he knows na ganito ang magiging reaction ko kapag nalaman ko and that he doesn't want me to get hurt.

Haiii,the girl I'm referring to was the girl who seduced the ex Jem,bago maging si Jem at yung ex nya,naging sila muna nung girl,and maraming tao na pwedeng mag-attest dun.She's known as the girl who gives extravagant things for the guy she likes.Errrr,naiinis ako.
As I have said in my previous posts,I shouldn't be feeling this way since hindi naman kami,ni hindi ko nga alam yung nararamdaman nya sa'kin eh,o kung may nararamdaman nga s'ya?!!!!!

2005-11-07T08:21:00.000-08:00

hmmmm,back to normal again,I'm back to my old self,the busy-active-studious-dana[studious daw?!].We didn't have regular classes this day,it'll be on Thursday,our teachers just had some chit-chat with us,students,and have our test paper/s rechecked,and I did a pretty job on the 2nd periodic exams.=)

ooh,our adviser had already arranged our seats,at first,I thought that mama lulu [our adviser] will be placing me at the back seat good thing she didn't,I'm still in the same row,beside Peps,in front of my gummyworms.^__^

speaking of HIM,my gawd,he's starting to be soooooppppperr sweet again,I can't take it anymore,I don't wanna fall that hard for him,I might end up being hurt or worst rejected,and I don't wanna feel rejection,I don't wanna cry a bucket of tears again.*sighs*

anyways,sembreak's cool,I had so much fun staying in Batangas[as always],supre bonding with my cousins,too bad the pix are with Keng.tsk.=p

2005-10-30T11:36:00.000-08:00

I'll be gone for a week,i'll be spending my semestral break with my cousins in Batngas,I hella missed them so muchhhh.At last,were complete again.=)

Anyways,Angelo will be spending his sembreak in Bora,awwwww,I envy him,and on the other hand his cutebear,Hannah went to Quezon just this morning,how I miss them,especially Donnie.^__^

Please guys,if you got multiply account,please,please,do visit me and add me as a contact,I would really appreciate it.=p

Until next time,keep safe and don't forget to pray for the souls of your loved ones alright?muuuuuahhhhhh..

Oh,and Happy Birthday to my cousin,Nathaniel.=)

Sembreak na!!!!!!

2005-10-28T20:57:00.000-07:00

Yuuuuuuhhhhhhoooo..sembreak na namin.=)
At least even just for a week I would be able to have 8-10 hours of sleep.=)

Today was the last day of our intramurals,pero nag-stay kami sa room from 7-12 because it was raining hard pero wala naman kaming ginagawa,sound3p,took photos and SLEEP!hahaha...yah,natulog yung iba kong mga classmate kasi may dala si Justine na banig(parang picnic lang ah?!)

So ayun,pinababa din kami mga bandang 12:30 kasi ok na yung panahon,mejo umaayon na,maaliwalas na nga eh!
The games resumed,nga pala,la na kaming mga laban kasi babye na kami,we didn't made it until the finals but at least our class showed the true meaning of "teamwork" and "sportsmanship" and besides we got 2 champions,Badminton girls(doubles) and table tennis(girls) bebe ko kasali dun,si Nina,I call her bebe kasi.=)

Kanina,ang daming absent,17 lang kami sa class at si Donnie mga bandang 2:30PM na dumating,so nasa baba na lahat kami,ang bait n'ya noh?nag-atubilu pa s'yang pumasok?(pero minamahal mo????)=p
Oh,and Ma-anne was with us,Hannah and me since hindi pumasok yung mga kasama niya.Natatahimik nga po s'ya kapag binabanggit ni Hana si Donnie sa'kin eh!

So ayun nga,pagka-ring ng bell,pag-labas namin ng gate,si Angelo ang sumalubong sa'min,di kasi pumasok ang dakila kong bespren na boypren ng bie ko.Tapos ayun,we rode a cab pauwi dito sa bahay tapos nag-rest kami sandali tapos diretso sa gateway,Hannah,Me,Angelo and Donnie,hahaha..double date daw!

Basta I'm just happy...I really love my friends...=)

Oh,HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my cousin,Kathlea.
Happy birthday cuz,love you!ü

2005-10-25T19:17:00.000-07:00

The first and second day of our intramurals went fine,just for the fact that our basketball boys lost the game between Our Lady of Guadalupe,it's a good game tho'.

After our dismissal,Hannah and I headed @ Gateway to fill our tummies,we ate @ food express,Burger King and I ordered Onion Fries,yummmmm..tsaaarrraapp.=)

Btw,our business went fine,there are lots of customers,buti na lang hanggang kanina lang kasi I'm so tired na,grabe talaga.Oh,what am I gonna wear tomorrow????

day 1

2005-10-24T21:16:00.000-07:00

My day was so nakaka-pagod..grabe,pumatok business namin at take note..naubos paninda namin,kulang pa nga eh!=)

Oh,we won @ marathon race,3rd place-jeffrey..champion-nimfa..
We lost @ volleyball boys and girls..too bad,but 1 more game for both of them but we won @ basketball.=)(bestfriend ko star player..boom!)

Tapos,Jissele,Kazelene,Maan(yes her!)Lester and I went @ shopwise para mag-grocery para sa last day ng business namin.=)
Imagine,si Maan,nakikipag-biruan sa'kin about Donnie,yes him!
She told me na kung ano sa kanya,sa kanya lang and that nobody can take it away from her.But I'm not taking it seriously.
Wala naman na s'yang magagawa eh,I have fallen for HIM already,kahit ayaw ko na nangyari...

Ah basta!Sana malaki ulit kitain namin tomorrow.=)

[edit]
new pictures @ my multiply account.

etcetera

2005-10-23T19:42:00.000-07:00

I took the USTET just this afternoon and It was better than UPCAT.
I answered all the questions,hopefully I passed.*crossed fingers*
After that,I met up with Hannah within the vicinity of UST and then waited for my mom and her mom to fetch us.Angelo was suppose to meet us but he couldn't find Hannah and me,so he decided to go home since his brother is already waiting for him outside the campus.

Tomorrow is the start of our intramurals and my group will going to put up a 2 day business for our project in Economics,sana pumatok.=)

Hope I passed USTET.

Update/s

2005-10-22T17:57:00.000-07:00

Last Saturday,Oct15,I went to UST with Eds to submit our application form and ang init sobra!Imagine,talagang ako ang nag-asikaso ng application ko?I'm proud!^_^
After that,we headed at SM Manila to fill our tummies,we had our lunch at KFC yummm..And then we stopped by at an net cafe to check out something on the net,and I bought a little keychain from Blue Magic,it's cute.=)

And just this week,we had our second periodical exam.I think I did well in Math and Physics,I just dunno in Eco =x.

Tomorrow will be my USTET,my schedule is:1-5PM @ Benavides Bldg. did I get it right?Wish me luck guys!

And on Monday until Friday will be our Intramurals week,wooooooohhooo..tapos sembreak na!

[EDIT]
just this week before our exams Donnie and I had a chit-chat
and then he asked me if I knew "jenny", I told him no but I reallt know who's that "jenny" is,it's Raina,and then he told me na si Raina nga yun..here's the conversation:

D:Oist,kilala mo ba si jenny?
Me:Hindi(nakatungo lang,nagaanswer kasi ako ng Physics SW nun eh)
D:Si Raine yun,wala akong girlfriend noh!
Me:Oh ngayon,anong gusto mong gawin ko?
D:Pwede ba ikaw na lang girlfriend ko?
Me:Hahaha,ayaw ko nga(pero deep inside kinikilig ang lola mo)
D:Bakit naman?ayaw mo ba sa'kin?
Me:yoko..hehehe

Riiiiiiiiiiinnnnnnnnnnnnggg....

meron pa!last week din after nung last post ko.
Physics time din!
tumabi s'ya sa'kin since unoccupied yung seat ni Mark,tapos ayun,he was eating stick-o and he offered na share kami dun sa isang pack so I agreed since gutom na rin ako.^_^
Tapos he put his head on my shoulder tapos he held my hand then told me "i love you".....awwwwwww..how I wish he really mean it.sana nga...

MAGULO!

2005-10-11T18:52:00.000-07:00

Oo,nagsisimula na naman ako mag-post ng mga kadramahan ko dito sa blog ko.Ewan ko ba,kanina naman nung nasa loob pa ako ng klase namin okey pa ko,uhmm,ok naman ako eh,siguro?!

Namimiss ko kasi yung taong pinakawalan ko para lang kay "Drag" na wala naman akong kasiguraduhan sa nararamdaman niya sa'kin,o kung meron man.Pero sa kabilang banda,naisip ko na mas nakabuti sa'min yung ganito,kasi kung magsasama pa rin kami mas lalo akong magiging unfair sa kanya kasi si "Drag" ang iniisip ko,at hindi na rin ako ganun kasigurado sa nararamdaman ko para sa kanya.Para ba kasing nahulog na talaga ako kay "Drag".

Nakakainis naman kasi!Hindi naman kailangan maging 2 gabi ang retreat namin diba?(sisihin ba raw?).Oo,retreat!Oo nga naman,maiiwasan mo ba ang hindi mangulila sa taong mahal mo?Hindi mo makausap o makatxt man lang kasi hindi kayo pinapayagan gumamit ng cellphone,at kung payagan ka man walang signal!Anong gagawin ko?magmukmok?dahil hindi ko nakausap ang boyfriend ko?Ang KJ ko naman kung ganun,Tagaytay yon mga tsong!Ang ganda ng view,yung mga kaibigan mong loka-loka kung san ka niyayaya at ang pagkakataon nga naman,yung kaibigan mo ka-close si "Drag",alangan namang umiwas ka diba?Eh wala naman ginagawang masama sa'yo yung tao,tyaka diba nung 3rd year ka pa lang crush mo na yun?Pero ano ba naman?!Hindi mo naman inakalang magiging kaklase mo s'ya,na magiging close kayo kinalaunan.O ayun,retreat,gabi,mga love team ang nasa terrace at ikaw at si "Drag" ang love team ng klase nio,so kayo ang magkasama.
Pero,ano ba naman?!2 gabi lang yun,tapos bigla mong na-realize na nahuhulog ka na sa kanya?Sabay,hindi lang naman dun,sa likod mo s'ya nakaupo at sa araw-araw na ginawa ng Diyos lagi ka nya kinukulit,pinapasaya,inaasar,kinukunsume at minsan pa pinapaiyak pero kahit minsan,hindi mo nagawang magalit sa kanya,pikon oo,kasi pikon ka pero inexpect mo ba na hahantong sa ganun?
At sinisi mo pa ang besfren mo dahil sinundo s'ya sa retreat nio kasi may laban sila?!Ang sama mo din!

Ngayon,nahulog ka na nga sa kanya,namromroblema ka,bakit?Kasi mahal din s'ya ng kaibigan mo at ngayon din may "gap" kayo ng kaibigan mo dahil nagseselos ka sa kanya dahil inamin nya kay "Drag" na mahal n'ya siya,samantalang ikaw tahimik lang.Eh alangan nga namang aminin mo?Eh di iniwasan ka naman ng tao,pero ang galing mo din ha!Affectionate ka pa rin,pag nilalambing ka nya,ginagantihan mo din ng paglalambing.Kung gaano ka ka-sweet sa kanya noong retreat nio,ganun ka pa rin ngayon,lumala pa ata.

Pero sobra na ata.Nasasaktan ka,oo NASASAKTAN ka,kasi hindi mo alam kung ano ka ba para sa kanya.Iba ang pinapakita n'ya sa'yo kesa sa iba,ayaw mo bigyan ng kahulugan pero s'ya ang nagbibigay ng dahilan para bigyan mo ng kulay ang pakikitungo n'ya sa'yo.Ano ba ang talagang gagawin mo?Magpapatuloy ka pa rin ba sa pagmamahal sa kanya kahit hindi mo alam kung saan tutungo yung sinasabi mong PAGMAMAHAL sa kanya,kung masusuklian ba n'ya o tatanggihan rin nya tulad ng iba?!May naghihintay pa rin sa'yo pero tinatanggihan mo din s'ya kasi andyan nga yung MAHAL mo pero patuloy pa rin s'ya sa paghihintay sa'yo,kawawa naman yung tao.Pero mahal mo pa rin naman s'ya kahit paano diba?Kaya lang mas lamang nga si "Drag".

Nagyon,hindi mo alam kung pa-paano mo tatapusin itong napaka-walang kwentang entry mo kasi naguguluhan ang utak mo,tulad ng entry mo na magulo.....

Activities, etc.

2005-10-10T18:58:00.000-07:00

My day went fine as usual.We had our general assembly this morning and the Social Studies department launched the UN week.
Every class in each year level is asked to decorate their respective room based on what country are being asked of them to represent and our class fourth year Our Lady of Lourdes are asked to represent United Kingdom and Donnie=) was the one in charge in our class since he stayed in London I think for 4 years.=p

We had the second part of our quiz in Physics and I don't know if I answered all the items correctly since it required computations and I'm really not good in numbers that's why I slipped from being a 3rd honor qualifier when I was in my junior year because of MATH.^_^

Anyways,today is the 11th month of my besfren and bhie
Happy 11th monthsary to Hannah and Angelo.Stay in love.=)

TRUST?

2005-10-06T19:15:00.000-07:00

Ano na naman ba ang problema?dati ako ang hindi kumakausap kay nila Maan tapos biglang ngayon hindi nila ako iniimik?Gumaganti ba sila?Sabi nila na dati na nagtampo lang sila kasi hindi ko sila pinapansin nun pero naiintindihan nila ako tapos ngayon biglang ganito?Pero parang alam ko ang dahilan...

Nung Friday last week,umiyak ako sa klase namin(walang teacher) pa'no ba naman nagsanib na naman ng pwersa si Donnie at ang aking dakilang bespren na si Angelo.So,ano ba ang laban ko?2 sila,1 lang ako,nalaman ko na pinaparinggan pala ako ni R----,sabi nya
R:Maan,nakakainis!!
M:Sino?????(kunyari di alam!etchos)
R:Ayun oh!(sabay turo sa'kin)

Pano ko nalaman?dahil sa isang mapagkakatiwalaang source.
Di ko 'lam yun nung una,syempre naksubsob ako sa lamesa ko nun dahil humahagulgol nga ang lola nio.(iyakin nga ako)
At ang isa pang dahilan,nalaman ni R na si Donnie dapat ang kasama ko sa concert kaya nga lang di na s'ya papayagan at as usual,close sila ni M kaya sinabi nya.Duh!ano un?selos?inggit?ano ba dapat n'ya ipagselos?o ikainggit?diba wala naman?hindi ko naman inaagaw si Donnie sa kanya eh!Oo,may nararamdaman ako para kay Donnie pero diba nga sabi ko kaya ko isacrifice yung happiness ko para sa kaibigan ko?Hindi ko na nga pinapaalam kay Donnie yung totoo tapos biglang ganito lang?And besides,bago pa man umamin si M kay Donnie,usapan na namin yung sa concert,hindi nga lang natuloy!

Akala ko isa na "sila" sa masasabi kong totoong kaibigan..Hindi pala..totoo nga yung sinasabi ng iba,"MAHIRAP ANG MAGTIWALA!"
kaya kayo pipol,wag kayo basta2 magtiwala,baka tuklawin kayo patalikod ng mga pinagkakatiwalaan nio.

PAINFUL REALITY

2005-10-04T20:27:00.000-07:00

Through that open window,I have thought of something
Something that opened my mind into reality
A painful reality that keeps me hurting
That cannot make me live peacefully,I'm not in that bliss serenity

I never thought this would happen to me
Never did I intend to feel this way
But now I'm going insane
I'm asking you to listen on what I'm going to say

I have fallen in love with you
I'm sorry,I did not intend to
Nor did I want to love you
Again,I'm sorry,I did not intend to

I just hope you won't avoid me
Just let me love you
Eventhough,I know in reality
There can never be you and me

And now this is the painful reality
You cannot love me back,it could never be
For I know there's someone in your heart
That someone is she,it can never be me...=(

by:me

No Subject/Topic!

2005-10-03T17:54:00.000-07:00

New layout,it's cute isn't it?:)
Anyways,nothin much happened but last October 1,something did happen.=)
yeah,it was Nina's concert and I watched it alongside with 3 of my friends namely Hannah,Angelo and Karlo.At first,it was supposed to be Donni who would come with us to see the concert but since he isn't available I took Karlo as anothe option.LOL.^_^

Araneta was jam packed!(tama ba?watever)LOL.
But nonetheless,the concert was soooooo ganda!
It,ended at around 11:30 'cos it started at around
8pm.After that we headed straight @ Gateway to fill
our tummys,we ate at Taco Bell but to Karlo's dismay,
he lost his 500bucks so Angelo just paid for his bill.
And then,my dad fetch me,Hannah and the two boys hitched with us
since Hana will be fetch here in our place as well as Angelo and Karlo just rode a tricycle since his place is near from here.
but,yeahhhhh..the concert and Nina's performance rocks!

Donnie?ugh,I dunno what I'm feeling.I thought everything's settled already but I think it's not yet done.(sighs)

2005-09-30T19:37:00.000-07:00

Have you ever thought of giving up someone sooooo SPECIAL for you just for the sake of not losing your friend?Did you get what I'm saying?Haha,Im just wondering because Donnie and I had discussed about this issue this afternoon,it just came out of our mind.LOL(yeah,him)

So the discussion was a little bit awkward for the both of us since there is an "issue",you prolly know what I'm talking about.
Uhm,so ayun,we discussed about that issue,I told him that if I would be in that situation I would rather give up the person I love than taking the risk of losing my friend and besides I dunno if the person I love,loves me back.And his stand was the opposite of mine,he told me what if the one I love,loves me back but he cannot just show it because I don't make him feel that his special:x

Basta ako,I would rather give up the one I love kesa naman sa mawala yung kaibigan ko diba,kasi marami pang dadating na magmamahal sa'kin pero yung mga kaibigan,minsan ka lang makahanap ng totoo diba?

2005-09-28T19:00:00.000-07:00

I'm in speaking terms again with Maan and the rest of the 2 girls.

Anyways,our project in Filipino was finished and it'll be submitted on Friday.Our class worked hard for it so we think we need to be credited for that.LOL.^_^

Last Monday,me and my dad went @ St.Luke's for my check up because they noticed that I looked so pale,and yeah,they panicked.
I had 3 test,the results will be out tomorrow.Actually,low blood ako,80/60 ang BP ko and I still feel dizzy....

Pagbabago

2005-09-24T16:43:00.000-07:00

Something changed,yes meron ng nagbago only this past few days.
Suddenly,I'm not talking to Maan and the rest of the 2 girls,
Donnie and me are also not in speaking terms right now,is it because of jealousy?I dunno.Or insecurity?I really got no clue.All I know is that I'm hurting,I am in PAIN.

And yeah,the reason was he/his and she/her.
Thursday afternoon was scheduled for our pictorial for our Filipino project,I'm really not feeling well that day because I'm suffering from Dysmenorrhia(did i spelled it right?),but just for the sake of finishing our project,I gave in to their request.Little did I know that Kzee asked Donnie to wait for Maan since she is incharged of taking the pictures and all that stuff,when Nina told me that parang nanghina ako and I really don't know why.=(

The next day,I didn't talked to him as in the whole day,naiinis kasi ako,I'm being selfish,yes!Before,his attention is just focused on me,well almost until someone took over my role.
He told me na wala s'yang feelings for her pero bakit ganito na ang nangyayari ngayon?Naprepressure ba s'ya?Yun kasi ang sabi nya sa friend ko,FYI,he knows what I'm feeling,na I cried just because of this s*it!And yeah,my bf knows all of this stuffs.I know galit na galit na s'ya sa'kin pero ayaw lang nya sabihin sa'kin,hindi naman ako manhid para hindi maramdaman lahat ng 'yon eh!

Basta ang alam ko nasasaktan ako sa lahat ng mga nangyayari ngayon sa buhay ko.Oo,pinapakita kong masaya ako pero sa likod ng mga ngiti ko may isang damdamin na sobrang nasasaktan pero sa kabila ng ito pinagpapatuloy ko pa rin ang buhay ko na parang wala lang,walang nangyari.Mahal ko bf ko pero komplikado kasi mahal ko na din s'ya,hindi ko sinasadya pero ayun ang nangyari,hiling ko lang na sana matapos na lahat ng ito,bumalik na sa dati ang lahat,yung mga pagbabagong naganap at nagaganap.Kung sana hindi na lang nagbago....

2005-09-21T20:25:00.000-07:00

I haven't updated my blog for almost a week,and in that one week,well almost,many stuffs happened in my so called "life".

We had our retreat last September 12-14 and 't'was fun and so memorable,our class is already bonded,to da max!=)
And yeah,my heart has been put to test-again!

[u]Here's my story[/u].

We had our retreat at Tagaytay,and I was with Maan,Joy,Sarah,Jhey,Jeff,Ericson,Raina,Peps,Mark,Angelo and Donnie but most of the time,I was only with Donnie.Err,he's so sweet and knowing myself I'm also sweet and so affectionate to my friends be it a boy or a girl,but I didn't expected that Donnie would respond positively on my actions towards him,I also do that to Angelo,he's my bestfriend anyways.And yeah,I think,I liked him more during our 2 night stay @ the retreat house,he was my crush "before" remember?!
Upon leaving the retreat house,he was so gentleman and I do admire boys like that.

But,ugghh,I shouldn't be feeling this,I think I'm falling for him?Or just an infatuation?Yeah,only an infatuation,c'mon I got my baby!
I love him so I should be fair right?!And Maan confessed her feelings for Donnie to me,because she knows that I got a crush on Donnie,at first,'t'was fine for me but suddenly bang!I'm starting to feel jealous which should not be in the first place because as I said I got my boyfriend and Donnie wasn't my bf anyways!

And then,she(Maan) confessed her feelings to Donnie through letter,she told Donnie that she wasn't feeling that way before for him,she told him to take care of himself since she can't take care of him 'cos he doesn't belong to her and she got no right to do so.Hah!so complicated!

Then suddenly,this afternoon,Joy and Sarah had a conversation with Donnie about Maan,and after their conversation,I asked Donnie what have they discussed and he told me that 'twas about Maan and so on.And then,out of nowhere...

Me:Rai,musta na kayo ng boyfriend mo?
Raina:Ok lang,happy
Me:buti pa kayo happy,kami,hindi.(sabay tawa)
Raina:bakit?
Me:cool-off kami
Donnie:that's why I stepped in!

Dang!He's acting weird suddenly,but I'm not assuming,ala lang,I just wanted to share what I'm feeling because I just need to let it all out!Oh anyways,I'm a 3rd placer on our CLE quiz bee.=)

*Bie,i'm so sorry kung nangyayari 'to sa'tin.Promise,pag naayos ko na yung sarili ko,pag hindi na ko naguguluhan at di ko na sinisisi sarili ko kung ba't tayo madalas nag-aaway,babalik din ako.I just need time.(sniffs)*

2005-09-09T21:21:00.000-07:00

Angelo and my other classmates who were varsity members of different sports wasn't around for the MAPSA competition,I still don't know the result though.Speaking of Angelo,he's making taray to me,wtf?hahaha,but that was just a form of his lambing.=p

We had the elimination for our CLE quiz bee during our CLE time,and guess what?I'll be representing my section,IV-Our Lady of Lourdes.
Goodluck to me!=D

Tomorrow we'll have our "dry run" for English,Math and Science,t'was like were going to take an entrance exam.=s
Our retreat will be on Monday,I'm excited,yuhhooo.=)

2005-09-08T18:50:00.000-07:00

Today was the MAPSA opening,meaning,our school will be competing with other schools who are members of MAPSA.Some of my classmates and friends are there.From Basketball down to Table Tennis.

And speaking of Basketball,me and Hannah didn't watched Angelo's game because it rained and the game started late so we just decided to stroll around Gateway and ate @ KFC.Bad eh?

And yeah,my super-duper-mushy- bestfriend has tampo to us,hehe.Anyways,I apologized already,errr,hindi ko s'ya matiis eh?!
They won anyways!

Oh,it's Mama Mary's Birthday!

Happy Birthday Mama Mary.=)

2005-09-06T21:22:00.000-07:00

This past few days has been to hectic for me.Yes,for some reasons,school works,articles,and the like but it was hectic because of my emotional stability.
I suddenly get "pikon" easily and out of nowhere I cried yesterday in class during our TLE subject because I got pissed off with Donnie,pasaway talaga!

Yesterday,OLR had their 2 nights and 3 days retreat in Tagaytay nad they'll be back tomorrow afternoon.I gave my friends retreat letters.
Letter of encouragement,gratefulness and the like,but I gave Karlo a kinda-long letter.I wrote there all my feelings for him,I told him that I'm so much thankful that he allowed me to love him even he can't love me back.(FYI,i don't love him anymore,i'm over him).
I wonder what's his reaction upon reading my letter?=p

We'll be having our retreat next week,I'm excited.=)

Kaibigan nga sila...

2005-08-31T20:23:00.000-07:00

Eto na naman ako,maglalabas na naman ng sama ng loob ko tungkol sa dati kong "best friend",actually hindi na natapos 'to,lagi ko na 'tong binablab dito sa online journal ko,pansin nio ba?ewan ko ba kung bakit,pero parang ang dami pang nakaipon sa loob ng dibdib ko na hindi ko pa nailabas.

Hindi naman siguro kaila dito sa mga bumibisita dito sa aking tahanan (kung meron mang bumibisita?) na wala na akong "best friend" na babae,alam ko naman na kilala nio cya,nababanggit ko s'ya sa mga dati kong entries.Wala lang,kahit mukha na akong sirang plaka,na paulit-ulit kong sinasabi dito ang mga tunay kong saloobin tungkol sa mga nangyari noon at sa mga taong tumulong sa'kin,wala akong pakealam,kung alam nio lang kung gaano ka-laki ang utang na loob ko sa mga talagang totoong kaibigan ko na hindi ako iniwan sa huli.

Ayan si Angelo,ang aking "bespren".Oo,medyo pang-asar s'ya,medyo mayabang pero kahit paano nasasakyan namin ang ugali ng isa't-isa.
Hindi n'ya ko iniwan noong mga panahong iniwan ako sa isang sulok ng akala ko'y tunay na kaibigan.Ipinagkatiwala ko lahat sa kanya ang mga sikreto ko at wala pa s'ya ibinubunyag at alam ko na kailanma'y hindi n'ya magagawang sabihin yun sa iba.Kasama ko s'ya lungkot,saya,katarantaduhan at katinuan.1 taon pa lang kami nagkakasama,pero hindi naman masusukat ang tunay na pagkakaibigan sa tagal nyong pagsasama,masusukat mo 'to sa sinseridad ng isang tao,yung talagang wala kang pagaalinlangan pag s'ya ang kasama mo,kesa sa matagal mo na s'yang kasama,akala mo panatag ka na talaga pero hindi mo alam iniiwan ka na ng dahan2.Kaya yan,si Angelo?Mahal ko yan kahit tarantado s'ya.=)

Si Hannah,ang girlfriend ni bespren.Oo,s'ya nga,kahit medyo magkaiba ang ugali namin,nagkakasundo pa rin naman kami sa mga ibang bagay.
Sosyal s'ya,simple lang ako pero isa lang ang masasabi ko..sa likod ng sosyal na Hannah na yun ay isang tao na mapagkakatiwalaan mo at talagang tunay ang ipinapakita n'yang ugali sa'yo.TRUE FRIEND talaga.=)

Si Jem,ang lukaret kong kaibigan,isa lang masasabi ko sa kanya.
Pang-habambuhay.=)

Si Kazelene at Ma-anne,yan dalawang yan,kahit moody at medyo ma-topak,totoong kaibigan sila,san ka nakakita ng taong kahit madaling araw at inaantok na ay handa pa rin makipag-usap sa'yo sa telepono kahit bawal na sila para lang bigyan ka ng advice tungkol sa buhay pag-ibig mo?

Madami pa akong maituturing na tunay na kaibigan kaya kahit nawalan ako ng isa,marami naman ang pumalit.=)

2005-08-30T20:15:00.000-07:00

My day turned out fine.We already started our discussions on other subjects,except for Math and English,because natamaan yung English period namin ng General Assembly at yung sa Math naman,igrinoup kami sa 6 para sa Research namin for Physics,Math and English,at nagsstart na kami mag formulate ng mga questions para sa gagawin naming questionnaire,tungkol sa difficulties sa MAPEH ang mga topic namin.

Ano pa ba?Bukas nga pala retreat na ng Our Lady of Mediatrix,OLM for short at si Jissele pa lang ang nagagawan ko ng retreat letter,gagawan ko pa si Alissa,Jr,Jerome at Jennifer pero mamaya ko na lang gagawin,nitatamad pa ko eh.=D

At nga pala,c Donnie nakakainis,wala lang ang bilis nyang mang-pikon,eh pikon pa naman ako,errr..=x
Sayang,crush ko pa naman s'ya dati,s'ya si gummyworms na ngayon classmate ko!LOL

2005-08-29T18:19:00.000-07:00

Oh yes,na-sira ang layout na ginawa ko?nakita nio ba yun?hahaha
anyways,ayun nga nasira nga s'ya at wala akong magagawa dun,pero cute naman sa paningin yung bago kong layout diba?
Galing akong Batangas nung Sabado,kahapon lang ng hapon kami bumalik.
Saya-saya talaga pag andun ako,syempre ka-chikahan ko ang aking pinsan ka si Karlo at Bek,dumating din sila Yeng kasama ang buong angkan nya,ang dami kasi nilang magkakapatid eh!=D

Ano pa ba?Ayun,nagsimba ako kahapon ng umaga kasama si Bek at ang kanyang labs.Sa totoo lang,ang tagal ko ng hindi nagsisimba,nakakapag-attend lang ako ng misa tuwing may misa sa skul namin at pag first Friday mass.Bad ko noh?

Haii,sana wala pa ring pasok bukas,nitatamad na akong pumasok,hahaha.
Sana September 12 na,para pupunta na ang Our Lady of Lourdes' class sa Tagaytay,retreat na namin yun,3 days at 2 nights din yun,wuhoooo!
Oi,lam nio ba,na-submit ko na yung mga article na assigned sa'kin para sa MG,wala lang,gusto ko lang ishare,hehehe.

O s'ya sige na,ako'y magpapaalam na.Babye!=D

2005-08-23T20:56:00.000-07:00

Nag-aaral pa ko kung pano gumawa ng magandang layout.
I wanne know the techniques,sino d'yan makakatulong sa'kin?
Yung magbibigay ng panahon tyaka magtyayaga na tuturuan ako,malaking utang na loob na po para sa'kin yun,matuto lang talaga ako.
Di pa kasi ako kuntento dito sa ginawa ko pero,ipinagmamalaki ko na 'to.=)

Uhm?Ayun,nakita ko na yung mga results ng periodicals namin at masaya ako sa mga kinalabasan.Wala akong scores below 80.=)
Ang tanong,makapasok pa kaya ako sa qualifiers ngayong 4th year ako?
Di ako sigurado,kasi ang alam ko,pag natanggal ka sa qualifiers nung 3rd year ka,hindi ka na pwede maqualify pag 4th year ka.
Pesteng English kasi yun eh,oo tama!English nga,dahil sa aking minamahal na English teacher,biruin nio yun,mga 8 lang naman kaming qualifier ang natanggal sa qualifiers dahil sa ENGLISH!kakainis diba?!At ngayon,di ko mawari kung kasali pa nga ko sa qualifier,tignan na lang natin.

Ay,oo nga pala,nilapat na kami ng upuan para sa 2nd quarter at sa 2nd row ako nalipat,katabi ko ang aking walang kamatayan na bespren sa lalaki na si Angelo Agustin T. Yu.At speaking of Angelo,nag-quit s'ya sa varsity sa basketball kahapon at kanina kinausap s'ya ng assistant coach nila at pinababalik s'ya,syempre matatanggihan ba nya yun?bukod sa asst.coach nila yun,ayun ang kanyang doktor sa ipin at magka-vibes sila,ayun nga bumalik ang ungas,at nag-react daw ang kanyang kaibigan na itago natin sa pangalang "J",na kesyo wala daw isang salita ang aking bespren,kesyo ganyan kesyo ganito,'lam nio naman na mejo madrama talaga si Angelo,kaya bagay talaga kami maging magkaibigan,hehehe.Ayun,mukhang ayaw kasing patalo ni "J" kaya parang salungat s'ya sa desisyon ni Angelo na bumalik sa varsity ng basketball,kung susuriin..hindi naman s'ya dapat ma-insecure,ganun kasi pinapakita nya,kasi matalino naman s'ya,madami ang nagkakagusto sa kanya sa campus in short campus crush din s'ya,oo na ipinagmamayabang ko yung ungas kong bespren,matalino tyaka gwapo naman si Angelo kung tutuusin,ayun nga..hay naku,kung kelan graduating na tyaka sila nagkakaganyan.(nagsalita ang walang kagalit)

Oo,di pa kami bati ni Abby.Hai,ewan ko kung kelan,siguro hindi na,siguro pagkatapos ng 10 taon pero sa ngayon hindi talaga,nasaktan s'ya pero mas nasaktan ako.S'ya ang huling tao,bukod sa mga magulang ko,huling taong maiisip kong iiwan ako sa ere,pero nagkamali ako,siguro nga talagang ganun,nagbabago ang tao at ang panahon pero hindi ko inisip na masasayang lang yung siyam na taon,na ipagwawalang bahala lang n'ya.Pero nakakita ako ng mga taong masasabi kong tunay na kaibigan at siguro sa kanila mapapayapa ako,makakapag-lakad ako na hindi nagaalinlangan na kapag nadapa ako walang tutulong sa'kin dahil 'lam ko na aalalayan nila ako bumangon at napatunayan ko na yun,hindi lang isang beses,madami na at tuloy tuloy pa rin nila akong tinutulungan,sinasakyan ang kababawan at katarantaduhan ko,biruin nio yun natiis nila ako?LOL.
Basta Mahal ko kayo Friends!

madrama ba?hahaha.Pero sincere ako.=)

IM PROUD!

2005-08-18T20:30:00.000-07:00

Yeyyy!biruin n'yo?nakagawa ako ng layout sa sarili kong sikap?i'm so proud,promise.Hindi lang s'ya kagandahan,pero at least diba kahit paano marunong na ko?!Mukha ba kong tanga?hehehe,ala lang,natutuwa lang talaga ako.=)

Mag-eeksperimento pa ko,sa susunod mejo maayos na s'ya.
Bukas,gagawin ko yun,wala namang pasok bukas eh,Quezon City Day tomorrow.Promise talaga gagawin ko yun bukas,wish me luck ha?hehehe...

2005-08-16T22:33:00.000-07:00

hay!so,ang tagal ko ng hindi ina-update itong aking dearest blog.
pasensya na po,busy lang talaga ako sa school at sa katunayan ngayong week na 'to ay 1st periodical exams namin at bukas Math at Filipino ang subjects na itetest namin,oh well,good luck sa'kin sa Math,'lam nio naman na hindi ako kagalingan sa Math,ewan ko ba kung bakit hindi ko nakuhang mahalin ang subject na yun!

This week,ano ba?uumm..hectic talaga schedule ko eh!
At ang bwisit naming moderator sa Marian Gazette,ang inassign sa'kin na artcile para sa Sci-tech column ay updates tungkol sa Xentia Club,tapos deadline nya sa 24?ang brutal naman,kainis ha.
At hindi lang yun,may isa pang article,ung club update din ng Columbian Squire,naman,naman...wala bang pwedeng sumalo sa'kin?huhuhu..at naku,pag sinuswerte ka nga naman,ang proctor pa namin is yung moderator namin sa MG,o diba ang saya?

hay naku,matutulog na nga lang ako at siguradong pahirapan bukas sa MATH!

2005-08-07T21:09:00.000-07:00

Sorry for not updating my blog,im just really busy with school stuffs and next2 week will be our 1st periodical exams..Anyways,I took UPCAT yesterday morning,and I swear nakakalito,hope i passed tho'.

The last few weeks has been to hectic for me,school projects,articles for our school paper etc. and Im really damn tired!feeling ko nga naubos lahat ng lakas ko sa projects tyaka lahat ng pinag-aralan ko eh.LOL
My life is in it's usual routine,nothing new,hahaha,u shud know better.=)

Oh,and Ate PS has already left for Chicago,Im gonna miss her.='(

2005-07-28T21:21:00.000-07:00

My permit for the UPCAT was issued today,my schedule will be on the 6th of August @ 6:30AM,anyone there who can be my company?
Hannah,will have it on the 7th @ the college of engineering building and Angelo on the 7th too,on the afternoon @ Math Bldg.

And guess what?Abby will be having her UPCAT too,also on the 6th of August,we have the same schedule,anyways,were still not talking,it's been long ehh?yah,that's life!

Please pray for me,so hopefully I can pass the UPCAT,it's for my mom and dad's happiness..

2005-07-26T20:38:00.000-07:00

My day went fine,we had discussions then,
group activity and the like.
Angelo wasn't around,he attended the leadership seminar alongside with two of my other classmates,Nimfa and Ruby.

After dismissal time,Kazelene and me were supposed to go to Alimall since I asked Kz if she can accompany me at Blue Magic to help me find a gift for my cousins debut on Saturday,but suddenly my dad's face popped from nowhere,LOL,the plan was cancelled and we both agreed to continue the plan tomorrow.

Oh,I changed my layout,got this from blogskins,its cute isn't it?
Btw,Ate PS and her parents arrived Friday last week and would you believe it?Im thinner than her?hahaha..and yeah,Im taller than her.LOL

2005-07-21T21:34:00.000-07:00

Career Path?Yes,Im actually asking what my careed would be in the near future.We didn't have lectures,discussion etc.,this day was our career orientation,it'll be a two-days activity which I said earlier,started this morning.

The school invited a guest speaker from DLS-CSB a Theology teacher,I can't remember his name,sorry.Anyways,we thought that the talking will going to be a plain boredom but to our suprise it didn't end up that way,he was so energetic and enthusiastic telling his personal experiences.He told us that his course wasn't related to Religious Studies,instead,he's an Electronics and Communication Enginnering but since he had a passion in bringing people much closer to God,he took up Religious Studies for,I think two years and graduated with flying colors as a MagnaCumLaude.

He told us that,what your outlook in life is,your outlook in the future,so we should have a positive outlook towards life.If we believe were just an average student,then we'll be ending up that way,we should think that we can do better than that.

His words really inspired us seniors,I think,but speaking for myself,I've really been inspired.=)

During the afternoon activity,4 alumna of our school was invited as guest speakers and was asked to gave us some helpful tips for us to survive college.
One of them was our school dentist,Dr.Buencamino,another is Atty.Esguerra (I forgot his fist name) who's a graduate of Political Science and just passed the bar exam last 2002,Mrs.Yao who's a graduate of Physical therapy,and who's currently taking up Nursing btw,she's married and has a child,another is Mrs.Casio who's a graduate of Computer Engineering in DLSU and who's currently a Director of MAPUA Institute at the age of 31,would you believe it?With 3 kids,2 being her youngest?,my gawd!That takes a lot of work.

The over-all activity was really impressive!

2005-07-19T20:40:00.000-07:00

It's been a week since I last updated my blog,oh well,im just busy attending reviews and doing school projects.
Last week was our mastery test for the first quarter and as of now the results are pretty good,some are average and above average.=)

Anyways,my life this past few days are doing just fine.
Tomorrow,my uncle who's a seaman will arrive from Russia and on Friday my uncle albert,auntie bit and my cousin(s) ate ps will arrive from Chicago to attend Ate joan's wedding on the end of July.
I should be one of the bridesmaids but I'll attend my cousin's debut on Batangas,I'll be on the 18 treasures and until now I still don't have something to wear.The attire will be in semi-formal and my gawd!Im going to sing Especially for You by MYMP.=)

2005-07-07T21:15:00.000-07:00

How's your day guy?Mine was,uuhhmm,lemme see,it's just same as yesterday,i need a life!lol.
im bored with my daily routine,school-house-school-house,damn it!
I need to go out with my friends,I need to go shopping,actually I want to go shopping,I want to but new blouses,wish i had enough money to buy my wants.tsktsk.

Our review class for math was postponed,instead of this coming saturday,it was re-scheduled on Saturday next week,due to the PTA meeting that will be held on the 9th,saturday.
after that,we'll be going to Batangas to check my mom's business there and to visit our relatives of course,I miss them so.=)

2005-07-06T21:10:00.000-07:00

still got cold and flu.
class was fine,especially during our Filipino subject,
Mrs.Soriano took us at AVR to have our class discussion there,for a change.We read a story entitled [b]"Paalam Pagkabata"[/b],it was a very touching story.

It's a story of a nine year old boy,who's not physically mature but emotionally mature.It's the story of a disfunctional family,basta it's a good one,promise,it's worth reading.=)

Anyways,this afternoon was our club meeting,Hannah,Jem and I wasn't able to attend the screening of Marian Gazette,monday last week,so the club moderator put us at Young Journalists Club instead,but still a part of MG,were Sci-Tech contributors,although I like literary more,I do well in writing Sci-Tech news.Its pretty easy tho'.

2005-07-04T21:14:00.000-07:00

I have flu and a slight fever.=(
Almost half of the class has it,too bad.:(

Anyways,class was fine eventho' it was raining this afternoon which makes our class felt sleepy,especially during our Math period,were on Statistics now,it was pretty easy.=)

Gawd!I'm not really feeling well,I need to go and take a rest,hope I can go to school.

Goodnight guys!

note:please,please,please...leave a print on my tag.
i'll appreciate it.Thanks!

2005-07-03T21:10:00.000-07:00

New layout!im craving for cookies.LOL

My mom and dad went outside to have grocery and they bought me Chips Ahoy!:)

Anyways,yesterday was the start of our review class in Math,I was with Jem,Angelo and Hannah.
Speaking of Hannah,she's not yet feeling well when she arrived yesterday morning,she was absent last friday because she has fever,awwww..too bad,she missed our friday gimmick.

Last Friday,Jem and me went to gateway to just....eat!yeahhh,we eat at KFC,yah...fave namin un.

uuhhmm..so sad i need to go na!got to do my reaction paper pa eh!
see u guys!

2005-06-29T17:31:00.000-07:00

My dad,mom,grandma,auntie and my cousin just arrived from Pangasinan for the funeral of my uncle(my grandma's sibling..mother side)may he rest in peace.
My mom told me that my grandma get to hysterical because of what she discovered,the one who just passed away was my grandma's favorite sibling.We really never know when we'll be going to leave our loved ones and we might never know,maybe tomorrow God will take away the life we borrowed from Him.

Anyways,school went fine,discussions and all that stuffs.I'm going to have my review classes in Math on 8 saturdays,starting on Saturday,July2.It'll be the preparation for the entrance examinations were going to take for our future.
Yeah,time flies so fast,parang kailan lang start pa lang ng classes and then voila!July is fast approaching and on the 12th were going to have our Mastery Test for the 1st quarter and by the 2nd week of August it'll be our 1st periodical exam na!

2005-06-28T21:00:00.000-07:00

This day was fine,it went well...almost?
During our lunch break,Jem,Me,Angelo,Hannah and Mark stayed on the corridor and behind us was Andrew and his friends.
Mark was teasing me to Andrew,blah blah..
and Andrew might thought that I still like him,duh!ok lang s'ya? I don't like him anymore and ugghhh..he's a liar noh!
I got so many questions to ask him but it won't be answered anymore because we got no communication,ummm yes,we do chat in ym once in a while but unlike before,were not close and I don't think we can get closer again!

Anyways,my groupmates and I opened a bank account for our project in Economics,we will be putting up a small business,it'll be showcased on our school's intramurals.
Btw,Im learning how to make a blogger layout,can anyone lend me a helping hand?

and yeah!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my friend--KAI-- =)

2005-06-26T19:25:00.000-07:00

im quite busy with so much school works,you know..Senior life but im getting used to it everyday.

anyways,last friday the Southborder had their concert at Araneta and yes,I watched.The tickets were complementary,the organizer was a friend of my dad that's why I had a free ticket,it was 5 free tickets.

I was with Karlo,Hannah,Jem and Angelo.
grabe!we had so much fun,as in!ang saya super!

2005-06-21T20:57:00.000-07:00

School day went fine,finally I had already submitted my UP form to our guidance councilor,she will be the one who'll take in charge in passing the form on UP.

I really don't know if I'll pass the UPCAT,but I'll try my luck,who knows I might pass diba?just pray for me guys.

This afternoon was our club registration,Hannah,Jem and me have the same choices,our 1st was Badminton,2nd was Marian Gazette and our 3rd choice was Computer Club.
Badminton?hahaha,actually I'm not into sports but for a change I'll try it out eventhough I don't know much about that sport,I can always get into Gazette,it's our official school paper,last year I was also a member of Gazette,I don't usually submit articles on time but on my part,I think I had submitted some nice articles,hehe =p

Senior High School..Be kind to me please?;)

2005-06-19T19:47:00.000-07:00

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY TO ALL DAD'S IN THE WORLD!

I love you dad!

2005-06-18T22:29:00.001-07:00

woohhooo!at last i have my net card na and i felt like years since i last went online.

oh well,this past few days,I'm still on the adjustment period of being a Senior High,Im not used in seeing my guy batchmates having the blue name plate,but as the days go by I'm starting to feel what a senior feels,haha..weird?LOL

school went fine,tuesday until yesterday was our orientation on our different subjects.during the first three days of class our section was so quiet not until yesterday,we talked and talked like there's no tomorrow.LOL!

yesterday,we had our CAT orientation,it was fine although Im a little bit scared of Mr.Rodriguez,everyone does.I dunno what position I'll be getting into,a Military Police or a Medix,let's just see.

2005-06-09T20:49:00.000-07:00

My day went fine and I'm not a bummer.LOL
My dad took Mom and me out and ate at Tokyo Tokyo,at last I got to eat Shrimp Tempura and Pork Tonkatsu again.=)

We bought plastic cover and my mom bought me a hearstrings shoulder bag,it's pink btw.Agghh,I think I'm starting to like the color Pink,I'm a Purple girl before remember?Hehehe..=)

Anyways,tomorrow I'll be going to Tita Len's clinic for the monthly adjustment of my braces and I'm going to wear retainers soon!=p

Oh,someone forwarded me a love article,read it fellas!=)

It is a mystery why we fall in love.
It is a mystery how it happens.
It is a mystery when it comes.
It is a mystery why some love grows.
And it is a mystery why some love fails.
You can analyze this mystery and look for reasons and causes, but you
will never do anymore than take the life out of the experience. Just as
life itself is more that the sum of the bones and muscles and electrical
impulses in the body, love is more that the sum of the interest and
attractions and commonalities that two people share. And just as life
itself is a gift that comes and goes in its own time, so too, the coming of
love must be taken as unfathomable gift that cannot be questioned in its ways.

Sometimes, hopefully at least once in your life - the gift of love
will come to you in full flower, and you will take hold of it and celebrate
it in all expressible beauty. This is the dream we all share. More often,
it will come and take hold of you, celebrate you for a brief moment, then move on.
When this happens to young people, they too often try to grasp the love and hold
it to them, refusing to see that it is a gift that is freely and a gift that just as
freely, moves away.
When they fall out of love, or the person they love feels the spirit of love
leaving, they try desperately to reclaim the love that is lost rather than
accepting the gift for what its was, then moving on.
They want answers where there are no answers.
They want to know what is wrong in them that make the other person
no longer want them, or they try to get their lover to change, thinking that if some
small things were different, love would bloom again.
They blame the circumstances and say that if they go far away and start
a new life together, their love will grow.
They try anything to give meaning to what has happened. But there is
no meaning beyond the love itself, and until they accept it. You need to
treat what it brings you with kindness. If you find yourself in love with
someone who does not love you, be gentle with yourself. There is nothing
wrong with you. Love just didn’t choose to rest in the other person’s heart.
If you find someone else in love with you and you don’t love him, feel honored
that love came and called at your door, but gently refuse the gift you
cannot return. Do not take advantage; do not cause pain. How you deal with love is how
you deal with you, and all our hearts feel the same pains and joys, even if our lives
and ways are different.

If you fall in love with another, and he falls in love with you, and then love
then love chooses to leave, do not try to reclaim it or to assess blame.
Let it go. There is a reason and there is a meaning. You will know in time.
Remember that you don’t choose love. Love chooses you. All you can really
do is accept it for all its mystery when it comes into your life.
Feel the way it fills you to overflowing, then reach out and give it away.
Give it back to the person who brought it alive in you. Give it to others who
deem it poor in spirit. Give it to the world around in anyway you can.

Here is where many lovers go wrong.
Having been so long without love, they understand love only as a need.
They see their hearts as empty places that will be filled by love, and they
begin to look at love as something that flows to them rather than from them.
The first blush of new love is filled to overflowing, but as their love cools, they
revert to seeing their love as need. They cease to be someone who generates
love and instead become someone who seeks love. They forget that the secret
of love is that it is a gift, and it can be made to grow only by giving it away.

Remember this, and keep it to your heart. Love has its own time, its own
seasons, and its own reason for coming and going.
You cannot bribe it, coerce it, or reason it to staying.

You can only embrace it when it arrives and give it away when it comes to you.
But if it chooses to leave from your heart or from the heart of your lover, there
is nothing you can do and there is nothing you should do.

Love always has been and always will be a mystery. Be glad that it came to live
for a moment in your life

2005-06-08T14:27:00.000-07:00

It was raining and I don't have nothing to do but just to stay here at home!arrrgghh im bored!

Yesterday,Kirstin went here to pick me up and then we went off to Netopia to went online since she has to check her friendster account,I missed that girl!=)

And then her boyfriend came here to pick her up,he was cute =)nice pick Tin..hehehe..=)
They look good together,hehehe

Oh,I spoke with my boy last night,from 11pm-2am,using his mom's fone,tsktsk bad boy!hehehe
My god!I really miss him so much,I love him so.

Bie,I know ur checking my blog,hehehe...
love yah!=)

EDIT:
My dad just arrived (2:36PM)
He bought me the June ish of candymag...
thanks dad!love u!=)

2005-06-05T20:08:00.000-07:00

My day went fine,and yes I'm a bummer,my parents and I didn't go anywhere,we just stayed at home and right now it's raining,it's now rainy season and a week from now classes will start and I'm off to senior highschool.

I slept at around 3am because I'm having a chit chat with my boo through text until 2am,oh yes,I am definitely IN LOVE with HIM.=)
Last night,I called him up using my mom's phone =p
it lasted for an hour and a half,I wonder the amount of my mom's bill,hehehe =p

I woke up at around 11am and then I called him up again at around 1pm,again,using my mom's phone (bad Dana)=)
I miss him na,and I'll miss him even more.

Anyways,my agenda for this week is to cover up my books with plastic cover of course and put a Winnie the Pooh cover on my notebooks,I so love that character,he's so cute...=)
And I still have to buy some school stuffs,I don't have school shoes yet,my old pair doesn't fit me anymore and I still have to buy 2 new daily uniforms because again my old uniforms doesn't fit me anymore and it's too short me na.

Oh,I forwarded a quote to Abby last night,the ending of the quote says "knowing u was indeed A WALK TO REMEMBER".
Of course,I do miss her so much,for me she's still my bestfriend and no one could ever change that but sadly things like this happens,I just hope in time will be ok and do the stuffs we used to do when were still in good terms,I hope it'll be soon.I need for your prayers guys,I need them so bad.

2005-06-04T20:50:00.000-07:00

AND IM BACK!!

Yes,Im back from my last 2 week vacation from Batangas,and I really had so much fun.Oh well,our town celebrated it's annual Santacruzan and 3 of my cousins are there,I so love Yeng wearing her purple gown,she's so pretty (it's in our jeans..lol) Ding is her escort,her brother,and also their youngest Bong also joined,I so love that boy!=)

Anyways,remember the guy I mentioned on my last posts before I went to Batangas?Kel?Yes,my ex...Oh,were back together again for the 3rd time around,I dunno why after all the pains he had caused me,after leaving me with a wounded heart,I still want him and yes,I LOVE HIM.
Now,Im on a long-distance relationship again,I know it'll be hard since were on different places but I promised myself to work hard for this relationship not to end.I maybe a spoiled brat and I admit I'm a little immature but I know my limitations and I know what I get into.I'm just hoping for this relationship to last,Im asking for God's help and guidance,and I know He'll always be there for US.

On my boy's part,he maybe a little bad boy but I've known him for quite a long time now,and this time around he's more mature than me,so I guess we'll definitely be fine.

Oh,just wish us luck guys!

2005-05-16T21:26:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow,i'll be going to school with my cousins and my dad of course,he's the one who's going to pay for the fees for my enrollment and were gonna take quarterly basis,the tuition fee increased 5% and we got to be practical.

Anyways,my cousins and I went to Gateway this afternoon,we just strolled around because the items there are so pricey,we can't afford it.We ended at SM Cubao,I bought a pink top and banana peel slipper,then we stopped by Ali Mall,I bought myself a denim skirt from freeway,its cute!=)

The adjustment of my braces was re-scheduled on Thursday instead on the 26th,I requested my dentist to have it re-scheduled because I want to have my last 2 week vacation on Batangas,it'll be the last weeks,me and my cousins are gonna be together,so why don't make the most out of it.

I'm so happy when I'm with them.:)

2005-05-15T19:20:00.000-07:00

new layout!got this from blogskins
anyways,my cousins,Katrina,Karlo and Karen are staying here for a week and tomorrow were going to Gateway to relax and unwind..

well,nothing much happened today and this past few days and im really bored to death as in!oh btw,gummyworms (my crushie) will be my classmate on my 4th year..yeyyy!=)

oh,and today's the 6th monthsarry of my pancake(Melai) and her bhie!..happy monthsarry guys!stay in love..=)

2005-05-12T12:14:00.000-07:00

i didn't blog yesterday because im lazy to go in front of my computer,all day i stayed in my room,of course i did eat and took a bath.i watched meteor garden =)
yayyyy!!im lovin' hua ze lei again..hihihi..=)

anyways,the adjustment of my braces was postponed,it will be re-scheduled tomorrow.oh btw,Katrina and Karlo,my cousins are inviting me to go with them to the mall,because Kuya Benjie will be taking them out after lunch,i wish i could go,but daddy isn't home so walang maghahatid sa'kin sa office ni tita menie..how bad =(
i think im gonna be a bummer all day....tsktsk..

oh,im lovin' the new layout of [url=http://www.xchubbiecheeksx.blogspot.com]Marj[/url],she made it all by herself using Photoshop and Image Ready..
kakainggit naman,how i wish i can make a layout using Photoshop and Image Ready...can anyone teach me????

but,i made a banner using Adobe Photoshop..it's not pretty tho'..

2005-05-10T21:48:00.000-07:00

hello!!im back,from my 3-week vacation from Batangas..did ya'll missed me?well,i did..i missed this thingie..=)
anyways,i did had so much fun during my 3-week stay there,my cousins and i really bonded a lot,were so much close,as in!=)

uummm,what happened ba there?lemme see..oh well,remember the guy i mentioned(someone from my past)on my last post?he acted weird when im there..suddenly he sends sms out of the blue,then he told me that Kirstin and he were couple,but absolutely they're not,Tin told me everything and she got his boy too so no wonder "past" is just lying..enuf of him!
his kuya naman,is sending sms too,suddenly he sends me mushy stuffs,telling me how he misses me so much..I wonder if its "kuya" or "past"??

last may7,our town celebrated it's Fiesta and it was really fun...and it's where I first drank alcoholic beverage as in gin pero may halong pineapple juice,and I swear,i didn't like the taste..=p

haaaii..how time flies so fast..almost 1 month na lang and im off to school again...it's my last year in highschool na..=(

SENIOR HIGH SCHOOL LIFE...please be nice to me..

2005-04-14T22:30:00.000-07:00

First,I want to greet my sweet friend Loraine Joyce Tolentino a very
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!sweet sixteen ka na bhebie..(i love it when i call u dat way)

Well,I reallt don't have nothing to blog about,I don't have nothing to do,just eat-sleep-watch tv-eat-sleep...and so on and so forth..
and im really getting fatter,arggghhh!

Tomorrow will be the 50th birthday of my daddy and I'll be going out tomorrow to buy some cake..=)

I really don't have something to blog..so i gotta bounce!ciao!=)

2005-04-13T21:20:00.000-07:00

Our report card was released today,I thought I got line of 7 because my adviser was threatining me last march,I believed her but to my surprise I got no line of 7 in my card.Hurray for me!=)
Well,my final grade in Filipino got lower same as Chemistry but above all my average was good.=)

2 tulog na lang and it'll be my dad's birthday,sadly I got no bucks to buy him any gift,how bad!And two days more then I'm off to Batangas again,Im gonna see my cousins again and someone from my past,hahaha.

Anyways,speaking of that person in my past,somehow I'm still thinking of the things that happened last morning of April 9.
I really don't want to think about him ever again but I just can't stop myself from thinking of him over and over again,he's sweetness is bugging me off!arrrgghh!!!But Im pretty sure this will only last this summer,and when the classes resume I will also forget everything about him.

Oh,I got a news from my cousin Karen.Aljon,my crush in Batangas who's also a former classmate of my cousin Karlo had committed "rape",mind you he's a minor,incoming Junior high,yes Karlo told me that he's a bully and he's a major "pasaway",I even actually we even caught him smoking at town's plaza when we watched a basketball game but gawd!I can't believe that he can commit such crime,ang laki ng kasalanan nya hindi lang sa mata ng tao lalong lalo na kay God!Sayang s'ya he's a cutie pa naman pero he broke his future..tsktsk..

I think that the youth of today should be more educated about sex eduacation,it's not only the role of teachers but especially their parents,our parents so somehow along the way this kind of crimes would be prevented.

I wonder what would happen to that boy?!
But we should give him the benefit of the doubt,he's innocent unless proven guilty right?!

oh well,gotta go..niytie everyone!Muuaahh

2005-04-12T21:17:00.000-07:00

My day went fine,I thought Im going to be a bummer here all day but suprisingly I did not it's because someone unexpected came to visit me and asked me out.
You may wonder who he/she is?..oh well,he's my 1st love,the first one who caused me pain,uhuh..ugh,enough of this mushy stuff.

He was with his cousin and his cousin's girlfriend.Oh well,his name is Pao and he's with James and Katey,swear I love that girl,she's really fun to be with and we share the same interests.

I didn't expected that Pao would come visit me,I thought he was kidding when were talking through text last night,so I was so shocked when he knocked on our door and see his face,hahaha...=p

So ayun,he introduced his cousin,of course I knew James,s'ya nagsusumbong sakin ng mga kalokohang ginagawa ni Pao before,tapos he also introduced Katey,girlfriend nga ni James,aba swerte ni James ha pretty ng girlfriend nya,smart pa..how i wish di lokohin ni James yun,babaero din yung ungas na yun eh,just like his cousin,hahaha...

So ayun,we went to Galleria,foodtrip sa Mcdo tyaka syempre niyaya ko sila sa Ice Monster,I ordered Mango Ice as usual my fave.
Wala lang we just strolled,when we got tired we went home na,we arrived here at around 5:30 tapos ayun,kwentuhan..By th way,Pao came Cavite,di ko na matandaan kung san sila sa Cavite,they're just having vacation here sa Manila,they're staying sa Fairview,again di ko lam kung saan sa Fairview,tapos Katey was staying with them..buti na lang kasama ni Katey yung ate nya kung hindi,di ko na alam..lolx

Tomorrow,kuhanan na ng cards and I won't go with my dad to get my card,kinakabahan talaga ako..basta I leave it to God na lang,s'ya na ang bahala!

umm,im gonna go..sweetdreams everyone!have a nice sleep..=)

2005-04-11T09:33:00.000-07:00

My day went fine.I woke up at around 9:30am,ate my breakfast,rest for a while then took a bath,dressed up and waited for my dad until he took a bath and get dressed up..after that were off to Tita Len's clinic.

Upon arriving at the clinic,Tita Len wasn't there,she was outside smoking some cigars and then she finally went inside.By the way,she's my new dentist,wife of my godfather in my confirmation.
Tita Jhing,my dad's sister was the one who's in charge of my braces before but since she gave birth and were having a hard time going back and forth to Batangas just for the adjustment of my braces,we decided to transfer to Tital Len since she's a family friend and her clinic is just around the vicinity of our school.
Ayun,she told me that there are no spaces left for my teeth,closed na xa kaya wala ng problema,the thing is she's just adjusting my bite,hay finally after 4 years of having my braces mawawala na rin sya soon.=)

Actually,masakit ipin ko..huhuhu..=p
Oh well,i just slept..sleeping beauty ang drama ko..harhar..
the weather was so damn hot!

Goodnight guys..Sweetdreams everyone

back from batangas

2005-04-10T21:05:00.000-07:00

oh yes,im actually back from Batangas,i really had fun during my last week of my stay at Batangas,well actually i don't want to go home yet it's because of my cousin and someone =p

oh well,my grannie(father side) and my mom put up an ukay-ukay business and Katrina,her mom and Me are in charge of it..=)
but i really have to go because 10am tomorrow will be my schedule for the adjustment of my braces and on the 13th will be the issuance of our report cards and on the 15th will be my dad's 50th birthday so i have to be here.

SUNDAY
when my dad and mom left from Batangas to go back here in Manila i was felt happy because i have my free time,without my parents searching for me all over our place.hehehe
evening of the same day,my cousins and I went to the plaza to just chill out..upon entering the place someone approached me and to my amazement it was Kelvin,my ex..nangamusta s'ya and walked with me and my cousin..ayun,his barkada and his sib are teasing us..were just laughing our ass off..=)

MONDAY-TUESDAY
the two consecutive days went fine..me and my cousins had fun..=)

WEDNESDAY
wednesday night,magkatxt kami ni kel,yeah just exchanging stories and he asked for Ate Lady and Ate Ycel's number(friends of Keng my cuz,they'll be having their OJT at Batangas)..of course i didn't gave it to him since i really dunno the number of both and basta i just don't want because I know him,he's a chickboy!;)
on the middle of the conversation,he asked me a favor,if he and his barkada can talk to Ate Ycel and Ate Lady..I asked my cuz,Keng if Kel and his friends can talk to her friends nga..and she answered me with a big NO..so i told Kel that they don't want to talk to anyone of them..and then he asked me if he can talk to me,I apparently said no because i don't have someone to accompany me and its past 11pm already,he even offered himself to pick me up at our house,but i said no,so we both agreed that we'll talk by tomorrow(Thursday)

THURSDAY
we didn't have that talk because i fell asleep..hehehe

FRIDAY
night*magktxt ulit kami,we decided to talk na..eh it was 11:45pm and i don't have someone to accompany me and my cousins are fast asleep na..he told me na if i can't meet him up outside our terrace,I should just forget him..so I texted Keng and told her to fetch me at our kubo because it is where Katrina,Karlo and me are sleeping..anyways,ayun..i went out of the kubo at around 12..my cousin's friends even went out with us..dahan2 lang cos our grannie is sleeping in our sala..ayun,upon going out..sinalubong na nya ako..
we talked..separate from my group and his..we acted like we were couples..like before..god i really missed him..i dunno..nagseselos ako pag may binabanggit sya na ibang babae..he's too sweet to me...basta he treated me as his Princess during that morning...
and i really dunno what to feel..

now,Im back home and i don't know what will going to happen during my stay here for a week(i'll be back at Batangas on Saturday)..I dunno if he still loves me..i dunno if i still love him..im damn confused..=(

vacation.. =)

2005-03-31T17:55:00.000-08:00

[EDIT]
oh,i changed my layout..
i love it..THANK YOU blogskins..=)

yeah,im currently on vacation here at Batangas,im really lovin' it to the max.. =)
anyways,im at my auntie's crib since there's no internet in my crib and free access to,unlimited..LOL

well,im really enjoyin' my stay here,i'll be back on the 10th of April,in time for the issuance of cards on the 13th and for my dad's 50th birthday on the 15th..
speaking of issuance of cards...gawd!what are my final grades kaya?
im really nervous,i dunno why...but i did my best on the 4th quarter..oh,its up to God na lang.. =)

anyways,me and abby are not yet fine,i haven't talked to her yet,either did she talked to me..ma-PRIDE kami parehas,but i guess mas mataas sa kanya,LOL.
im really missing her na,i'll talk to her SOON,ako na magbababa ng PRIDE. =p

my cousin just graduated from highschool yesterday,so i wanna congratulate him..Congratulations Ding,luv yah dude!=)
oh,and Ailyn,my toottiiee and fellow teentalker also graduated as 2nd honorable mention..way to go toottiiee..congrats..=)

oh well,gotta bounce!
muuuaaahhhh...=*

2005-03-23T19:10:00.000-08:00

haven't blogged yesterday because karen and katrina(my cousins)
arrived from nueva ecija(did i spelled it right?)
were off tomorrow to Batangas,my parents and i will be having our holy week there and they'll be back here on sunday night without me..o yes,im having my week long vacation there at Batangas with my cousins,im excited.. :)

what did we do today?uumm..i was supposed to have my braces adjusted today but i woke up late so i'll have it done by april..when i get back here from my vacation at Batangas..=)
oh,me and my cousins watched 3 flicks this day here at home..
How to Deal,Chasing Liberty and A Cinderella Story..
oh,i think i've watched those flicks for the nth time..=p

oh well,the seniors had theri graduation yesterday..
finally they're done with high school and as for me?
i have one more year,then off to college..gawd!time is flying so fast..you haven't even notice it..??

btw,for those who'll be having their vacation out of town,be sure guys to be safe and don't..never forget to have a date with God..it's not just about having fun and bonding with your relatives but with God too..remember it's holy week and were suppose to have time with him aight?!

so im gonna go...be safe guys..i'll miss you all..
have a safe trip for me..and for all of you too.. =)

love?

2005-03-21T19:02:00.000-08:00

do u guys ever wonder why do people need to fall in love?
sometimes i ask myself that same question..
come to think of it,if were not going to love someone then were not going to be hurt,were not going to scream on top of our lungs and won't cry bucket of tears..but still,we LOVE..we FALL IN LOVE..

sometimes,people who are being rejected by the one they love often asks theirselves why did they love that person eventho they know that they can't love them back in the end?...

there are couples who seemed to be really meant for each other but in the end goes to separate ways..everything seemed perfect until something went wrong,not noticing that both individuals have fallen out of love from each other...

when we had gone from a failed relationship,we often tell ourselves that we won't love again,but still we love again..pathetic as it may seem but its the truth..
but at least in the end,when we love again..we already know what to do..we have learned our lesson right?

but hey!

LOVE MAKES THE WORLD GO ROUND!=)

lovin' summer

2005-03-20T21:05:00.000-08:00

yeah,im really lovin' summer,so muuucchhiiee..
anyways,mom,grandma and tita daisy arrived at around 2:30pm

oh,have u seen the fight of Pacquiao and Morales..
too bad,Pacquiao didn't made it,the fight was pretty good.hehehe
well,im not really fond of boxing,naaliw lang ako kanina cos my dad was screaming on the top of his lungs...lolx

anyways,i went to my dermatologist to have my facial and get a treatment for my pimples..oh and i cried a bucket of tears..again..yes it was freakin' painful..
after that we went straight at ice monster..
browdnie fudge ice,'twas really,really yummyy..perfect for summer!=)

oh well,gelo,my bes miscalled me,telling me to call him up,but im teentalking so i have to set him aside,he understands though,hehehe..he told me to just call him tomorrow..
good thing,he never forgets to check me once in a while even were in different school since he can't be re-admitted at ICCS again,he's some kind of a bad ass u know..hehehe..but i love him eventho he's like that...

oh well,need to run...sweetdreams everyone!

learning photoshop

2005-03-19T22:10:00.000-08:00

well,another day has passed..
mom wasn't around,she left yesterday afternoon with grandma to go visit mamang's sister who's settled in Pangasinan..

oh well,woke up at around 10:30am..i thought im gonna be a bummer all day,but dad and i went at gateway to stroll,daddy bought me a skirt..=)
and then after that,we went at Proj.4 and stopped at Wham Burger..nag-take out kami ng Wham with cheese and just ate it here at home,yuummmy..*satisfied*

oh yeah,im currently learning some photoshop techniques,i envy those who knows how to make avatars,icons and all that stuff that were made with the help of photoshop..oh well,i have done one photoshop thinggie with the help of my mouse,keyboard and of course the photoshop..hehehe..sorry mejo panget im just starting to learn,don't worry..this summer i promised to myself to learn how to make avatars and more artistic works with adobe photoshop's help..
anyone who can teach me some techniques???

i blended it..not bad afterall eh?=)

last day of classes

2005-03-18T20:55:00.000-08:00

yea,last day of classes was today..gawd,nde pa lumilipas ang isang araw im missing my classmates nah..dapat bukas i'll go swimming with my classm8s since its Jay's birthday but i can't go because mom went to Pangasinan,our househelper will go out tomorrow to attend her sister's birthday and since there's no one who'd accompany my dad so i decided not to go na lang.

Jem,Hannah and me are supposed to go at Ortigas after class because Hannah are offering as a summer job with her but since its raining and my dad fetch me,we decided to cancel our lakwatsa and reset in after holy week..

oh yeah,i received letters from some of my classmates..for others it just a simple note and got no sense at all but for me it means a lot..it isn't just a note,it's a remembrance that should be taken care of because it came from not just a classmate but from a friend who had been a part of my junior life and whom im spending almost 1 year in school..*sniffs*

karlo handed me a letter..t'was just short but it was special because it came from him =)
he told sorry in his letter for me,na he just don't want me to get hurt that's why they kept their relationship a secret from me(karlo and abby)..and he also thanked me for being nice to him..na-touch naman ako..hehehe..i'll miss him for sure..yung pangungulit ko sa kanya..yung asaran namin,habulan sa classroom na parang wala ng bukas..hehehe..yung pagiging isip-bata namin parehas..tyaka yung jamming namin..pag tumutugtog xa ng gitara tyaka kumakanta ako,haaiii buhay nga naman..

Angelo also gave me a letter..grabe gusto ko maiyak sa letter nya sa'kin..he assured me na he's my TRUE FRIEND and he won't leave my side tyaka he'll help me in my problems in the best way he can,o dba ang sweet nya and so thoughtful kaya swerte ni Hannah sa kanya..swerte sila sa isa't-isa..

nyways,i took some snappies from my phone kasi dala ko kanina cel ko pero i can't post it by now..papadevelop ko muna bukas sa kameraworld kasi mahal pag isesend mo from cel to email eh..tipid mode muna ako ngayon kasi bakasyon..kelangan ko ng pera para sa lakwatsa..hehehe..oh well guys,gotta run!

sweetdreams everyone..

realizations...dreams..

2005-03-17T20:48:00.000-08:00

my day went fine..nothing bad happened
oh well,the dillema 'bout abby isn't over yet,i hope it'll be fix soon,i miss her so much..=(

anyways,all of my teachers already signed my clearance..kulang na lang 2 offices..APSA and APAA then im done =)

we had our last gawarasal in CLE this afternoon,the activity went fine..were going to write a letter for God..to say our thank you's,sorry's and to ask for a special favor from him..

i realized,i had so many things to be thankful for..
for the friends i have made,for my TRUE FRIENDS who showed me what is FRIENDSHIP all about,yung pagiging qualifier ko for honor eventho i didn't made it until the 4th quarter..im thankful for that..but on the other side,i've realized i've also done a lot of mistakes..and im really sorry for that,i'll try my best to be a GOOD GIRL from now on (goodluck dana)
what favor did i asked from God?uummm 'lemme see..i asked him to take care of abby and gave her the wisdom to realize all her mistakes,for her to know that i don't want her to suffer a life i know she won't like..i just want her to be safe cos she deserves it..basta I lay it all to God,I know he won't leave my bestfriend..
for me she's still my bestfriend eventho were not in good terms..i love her so much,and i'll treasure her forever..

gawd!time flies so fast..t'was just like i just entered high school and then now i'm going to say byebye for my junior year..as i enter the ICCS campus on june,i'll be facing more challenges,and gawd!..it would be my last year as a high school student then off to college..grabe ang bilis ng panahon..

basta,I just want to do better next school year,put so much dedication i'll do on my senior year and hopefully i'll be able to catch some falling stars and make my dreams come true..=)

oh..i took a quiz..
THIS IS ME

Which Disney Princess are you?

2005-03-16T19:08:00.000-08:00

well my day was BAD..well hindi naman masyado..my TRUE FRIENDS gave me the reason to smile..
the story goes like this..

recess time,i was with angelo at the canteen,while waiting for hannah renee came over and told me na she's going to talk to me later dahil madami daw nagagalit sa'kin..wtf!cnong cla?
pero i have this feeling na Precious have told some lies about me na..so i know what's gonna happen next..
so ayun,i was sitting with hannah and angelo,exchanging stories and making kulitan..so ayun,renee approached me..
nandun kami sa isang sulok..with her was abby,precious,jazel,joyce and hercel(H and J aren't included in the scenario)

so ayun,precious confronted me..she asked me kung bakit ko daw xa sinisiraan kay nila Ritchell..kung ano2 daw sinasabi kong kasinungalingan about her..na hindi ko daw xa kilala kaya i got no right to judge her..hello?am i judging her..she told everyone in our class "what you see is what you get"..and then she's telling me na im judging her?in what way honey?..na bakit ko daw pinapalabas na bad influence s'ya kay abby..first and foremost,hindi ako ang nagsabing B.I s'ya kay abby...yung mga lalake na ka-close ni abby ang nagsasabi sa'kin na ilayo ko si abby kay precious kasi nag-iiba na ng ugali si abby...i just told abby that..and besides,marami naman talagang nakakapansin eh..kung hindi sinabi yun ng iba at gawa-gawa ko lang..ipapaputol ko yung mga daliri ko..
at kung ang issue lang daw eh yung pag-iwan sa'kin ni abby because of her,papasamahin nya daw si abby sa'kin,yun eh kung sasama pa raw sa'kin si abby,kaso naiinis na daw si abby sakin..fine!naiinis xa..pero ano yung sinabi nya(abby) na hindi daw xa galit sakin,hindi daw xa naiinis akin..na hindi ko raw kelangan mag-sorry sa kanya kasi wala naman daw akong kasalanan.."san nahuhuli ang isda?sa bunganga"..at wag ko daw akong PLASTIC,duh!pano ko s'ya paplastikin eh hindi ko nga xa pinapansin since january diba?..ka-plastikan ba yun..she's not approaching me either..should i be the one to make the first move?in the first place alam na nya dati pa yung problema bakit hindi nya ko inapproach?kakausapin ko naman xa kung hindi ba naman nya ako sinasamaan ng tingin noh!and all the students of ICCS knows what she can do..kaya no wonder madaming takot sa kanya..yeah,im scared of her..scaredy cat..=)

anyways,ayun nga..tapos NANGANGARIR daw ako ng lalake..??huh??ako??bakit desperada ba ako magka-boyfriend para mangarir ako ng lalake?bakit dahil ba close ako sa mga lalake?dahil pinagtatanggol ako ng mga lalake sa knya?bakit who made the gap bigger between them?ako ba?hindi naman ah!may ginawa xang masama sa isa sa girlfriend nung mga lalake na sinasabing nyang kinakarir ko kaya nagkaroon ng gap between them..its not my fault anyways..and she also told me na hindi ko raw alam yung mga kaya nyang gawin..na baka daw di na ko maka-pasok sa school bukas..o ayan ha..if one day my nag-post dito na kamag-anak ko telling i was dead na you know na kung sino ang suspect ha!?*winks*

tapos renee entered the conversation..na bakit ko daw sinasabi kay abby na bakit daw xa nangengealam sa'min ni Andrew Apun..na why am i spreading rumors na naging kami dw ni Andrew Apun..wtf!kami?duh!pano?
bat sila lam nila ako hindi..oo andrew and i had been in good terms but were couples..not even once..getting to know stage,oo!pero kami?naahh..malabo!..
about sa sinasabi nya na bakit ko raw sinasabi yun kay abby..first and foremost..when i told abby what renee have told me na wag ko na itxt si andrew after she found out na i have a connection with andrew,abby was the one who told me na bakit nangengealam si renee..ako ba nauna?naahh..i just agreed on what have abby said..at kung hindi sinabi ni abby yun,ipapaputol ko daliri ko..SWEAR!!!!!!

after recess,as i entered our room jr,ritchell and angelo was waiting for me..nagpaparinig sila kay Precious,i told them to stop kasi baka lalong lumaki yung issue pero they insisted..*o ayan precious,sila ang nagdesisyon nun!hindi ko kontrolado yung utak ng mga taong yun*..sinabi din nung mga lalake na kung hindi ko raw kaya ipagtanggol sarili ko sila daw magtatanggol sakin..well,na-touch naman ako kasi i didn't know na they would do that for me..=)
tapos pinaparinggan din nila si abby "yan ba dana?bestfriend ng 4 years?hindi naman bestfriend yan eh...nangiiwan sa ere"..to the fact na ex ni jr si abby ha!pero na-touch talaga ko sa ginawa nila para sa'kin..

tapos ayun,kaya pala hindi ako pinapansin ni Princess kasi may sinabi si Precious sa kanya na sinabi ko raw na masama..syemper pinaniwalaan ni Princess yun,tropa nya yun eh!pero ako na-una nyang maging friend..**Princess,sure ka ba na cnabi ko un?did u ask me 'bout that issue?oh well,its ur decision..don't bother to answer my question**

sabi pa ni Precious kaya daw ako nilalayuan ng mga friends ko sa classroom dahil sa ugali ko..hindi kaya dahil nilalayo nya sila sakin dahil sa mga sinasabi nyang hindi ko naman talaga sinabi?!which is which?!and umiyak daw ako dahil sa confrontation seen..hello?oo iyakin ako pag lam kong dehado ako..oo nga dehado ako kanina..pero hindi ako umiyak kasi alam ko kung ano pinaninindigan ko!im not influenced by others decision..i decide on my own..i ask for advices pero i don't base my deciosion on others influence..got my own mind..gets?!
bahala na kayo humusga..ay..don't judge a book by its cover because im not a book!hahaha..=p

nga pala..karlo talked to me..asking me kung abt daw kami magkagalit ni abby..sabi ko sa'min na yun..tapos sabi nya nagbago na raw si abby!..o ayan ha!si karlo nagsabi nun..baka sabihin na naman naninira ako!

basta all i know now is that cla Joyce,Hannah,Angelo,Jr at Ritchell lang ang mga totoong kaibigan ko..yung HINDI KA IPINAGKAKALULONG..HINDI KA INIIWAN SA ERE..
**thanks guys...love u all!**

||what goes around comes around what goes up must come down..its called the KARMA baby..||

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2005-03-15T17:51:00.000-08:00

we had our post test kanina in almost all of the subjects,its like a diagnostic test on what have you learned in your third year..oh our adviser talked to me..i think im gonna be out sa qualifiers because of chem,her subject..well,i really did my best to understand the lessons she taught us but heck,puro formula..problem solving..nakaka-tunaw ng utak noh,buti pa math namin Ms.Briones allowed us to use index card with the formulas on it eh di hindi kami masyado nahirapan..tsktsk..oh well,kahit na hindi na ko kasama sa qualifiers at hindi na ko ma-qualify for honor on my senior year it wouldn't be a hindrance for me not to strive hard diba?..tyaka cguro naman hindi tinitignan ng mga universities kung honor ka in ur highschool life o hindi eh,what matter is kung nakapasa ka or hindi right?=p

recess time,oh yeah the witch is making parinig again,hindi ko na lang pinapansin cos i know na kapag pinatulan ko i'll go down to her level dba?but what i really hate is that lahat na lang ata inilayo nya sakin,tapos ngayon naman sila princess?wtf!i hate her..i really do hate her..she's a little damn twit,i wish her body was inside a cabinet tapos magiging corpse na lang s'ya..if im not really nice enough i would curse her really!*evil grin*

after recess time,nag nonote-pass kami ni angelo,i asked him kung sino kasabay ni hannah(girlfriend nya)pag lunch time,then sabi nya yung mga friends daw nya,tapos i asked him a favor kung pwede sabayan si hannah tapos sabayan nila ako kasi hindi ko na talaga kaya yung mga patutxada nung witch sakin,buti na lang he was good enough to agree..tapos i told her yung mga pinagsasabi sakin nung witch kaninang recess,gusto na nga ng mga kabarkada nya tyaka sya na awayin at paringgan yung witch kaya lang i stopped them,bait kasi ako..(talaga lang ha?)=p...they told me na hindi nila ako papabayaan..good thing one of the boys ako..im really thankful to have them as my buds.=)

lunch time magkasabay kami ni hannah..then angelo came..la lang kulitan..inaasar ko sila..tapos i told hannah what happened and then she suspects na kasama na c abby sa frat..oh well,its up to abby na..bahala sya dami ng nagsabi sa kanya,nagmamatigas pa rin s'ya..=/
tapos,kanina yung crushie ko..katapat ng table namin..as in katapat talaga..tapos our eyes met..yiikkee..he said hi,he talked to me din..pero sandali lang..nde s'ya nagpahalata na he was talking to me since aasarin sya ng mga kabarkada nya tyaka aasarin din ako ni hannah..after that..umakyat na kami..eh si hannah St.Augustine section nya eh yun yung section ni andrew..juice ko..nakita ko pa yung puno't dulo nung lahat kaya kami nasira..syempre classmate nya..and worse seatm8 din nya...;/
buti na lang hindi ako naabutan ni andrew na nandun sa classroom nya..oh well,iniiwasan nga nya ako dba?sus its his own decision,what the heck i care about that noh!?!..pero ay naku...ayaw ko na sya maalala nasisira lalo araw ko..buti na lang jan c crushie..waahhh..2 days ko na lang s'ya makikita..buti na lang we know each other's landline and cel numbers..hehehe..pero i'll be having my vacation at batangas eh..

anyways,enuf said..what im wishing right now is that my adviser would give me consideration for me to still enter on the qualifiers list..pero if not..i'll give my best shot on my senior year..

hugs everyone..muuaahhh..*tsup*

get a life!

2005-03-14T19:05:00.000-08:00

school was fine,informal meetings,just signing of clearance and re-checking of test papers..just a boring day,haaii..how i wish hindi na lang pinapasok yung mga students to get their clearance signed,the class advisers should be the one to do it..hehehe..*wink*

recess time..yung wicked witch ruined my break time,uumm not at all..
nagpaparinig sya about certain stuffs about me..telling my friends (we have the same circle of friends kasi,ay mali,she entered,EKSENA!)
na she's not plastic daw(really?),and kung may galit daw sa kanya sabihin sa kanya ng harap-harapan wag kung kanikanino daw..hell!how can i tell her im mad at her if im not even talking to her?common sense baby!and yeaaaaahhh,im not the frank type of girl..im just in silent tone..hahaha..wat pa ba?..she's pinpointing what i've told abby na maraming nagtatampo kay abby cos abby has changed since na sumama sya dun sa witch..and hindi ko daw alam yung kaya nyang gawin(ung witch)..oh yeaahh,i know ako pinapatamaan nya hindi ako manhid noh..wakakak..oh lemme see,i know what she can do..tatawagin nya mga ka-frat nya and then aabangan ako?luma na yun sus!kaya pag isang araw di na ko nakakapag-blog,you know who's the suspect..
jus wait for my thing witchie..oh,she quoted me "social climber"..honey,am i climbing on the wall?*sarcastic look*
and hello?do u really mean telling it to me?or to urself?get over ur insecurity baby!u can't get a life with that..=)
i'll get back to you,harhar..kaw din,you dunno who r u messing with,u dunno what crazy sh*ts i can do!
oh..sweet revenge-slash-sweet sh*ts..=p

well,monday is our sched for the use of the internet service in our computer lab..i checked my friendster account since i can't check it here in my pc because an error is occuring once i opened the site..anyways,i checked andrew's page,bakit ganun?he had really forgotten all about me?he said he won't lie to me,he won't go..but why did he?all those stuffs he told me was a plain LIE!and i hate him for that!he can't look at me straight to the eye whenever we cross paths,why?is he guilty?c'mon dude,i can understand easily,why do u have to run?oh i guess we hafta be this way!i can't let go that easy eventho we didn't have that "on" thing but i know for the fact that what we shared once was true..i'll forget you soon..i'll start it as soon as the class ends!i hope she'll make you really happy..and do the thing that i haven't did..GOODBYE TOT!*sniff*

exams are over..=)

2005-03-09T14:30:00.000-08:00

yes,you heard it right,our exams are over..tomorrow our class will start at 12:30pm(1st-3rdyear)..the seniors will be having their CAT graduation tomorrow morning..7-12nn.

anyways,im stressed out this last few days because of our periodicals at long last tapos nah..=p

the wicked witch in my life made me cry,oh yes she did!
imagine,inagaw na nga nya si abby sa'kin and then bigla ba daw hilahin si jissele sa'kin?wtf!jissele was supposed to go with me since it's my mom's birthday and then all of a sudden biglang ganun?so what does a girl like me should do?im not a fighter..eh di pinasama ko na lang si jissele kay wicked witch with abby papuntang Cobalt..bilyaran,as if jissele knows how to play?tyaka eksena lagi yung wicked witch na un sa buhay ko!so i just turned away and cried..yeah,im a CRYBABY!tapos when i turned my back on them minura ako ni wicked witch..tuloy mo lang baby,wait for your karma!hahaha..*evil grin*

oh btw,it's hannah and angelo's 4th monthsary..happy monthsary guys!stay strong..keep it real..im jus around if case both of u needs help!lavyah both..*muah*

uumm..abby,if ur going to read this i hope you'll realize na you can't please everybody..hindi sa lahat ng oras mauunawaan nila yung mga ginagawa mo.hindi lahat ng ginagawa mo kala mo tama,sana napapansin mo na nagtatampo ako sa'yo.mas pinapaburan mo pa sya(u know who she is)kesa sakin na bestfriend mo..oh hindi ko nga alam kung bestfriend pa bang magiging turingan natin after what happened kanina..abby,hindi ikaw yan..hindi ikaw yung abby na kilala ko,hindi ikaw yung bestfriend ko na kalog,mabait at pasaway =p
marami ng nakakapansin sa mga pinagbago mo this past few days,maraming tao ka ng nasaktan..sana naman napapansin mo na nasasaktan mo kami..ako,mga magulang mo tyaka iba mo pang mga kaibigan..alam ko matalino ka,kaya nga maraming nagmamahal sa'yo,oo pala-kaibigan ka pero sana naman you know your limitations..hindi ka na bata..hindi na tayo bata..alam na natin ang tama sa mali..u have a wide understanding of things,i know you'll be able to understand what im feeling,what do others feel...hindi kita pinapansin kasi nagtatampo talaga ako,kahit na gustong-gusto kita pansinin pinipigilan ko lang sarili ko kasi alam ko tama yung ginagawa ko..hindi ako galit sa'yo...galit ako sa mga ginagawa mong mali kasi nga mali,hindi tama..hindi dapat..oh well,i think i've said enuf...sana after you've read this we'll be able to patch things up..lam mo naman na you're one of the special persons close sa heart ko..if u really only know kung ano nararamdaman ko...this may sound as a big lie pero nalulungkot talaga ako sa mga nakikita ko na pagbabago sa'yo..sa mga naririnig ko sa iba na hindi kaya sabihin sayo kasi alam nila hindi ka makikinig..so un lang naman...im just around incase u need help..love you dude!

soon-to-be-worst-friend???

2005-03-07T18:29:00.000-08:00

oh yeah,she changed..prolly you know her.yes,my everdearest bestfriend..i love her but she really changed.its fine with me for her to interact with some other people,but changing her lifestyle,most of all her genuine attitude is a big NO,NO!!but she won't listen..well,i got no right to tell her this and that,i can't control her life anyways,but im just concerned for her because she's my BEST FRIEND..

she even takes me for granted..=(
and she arrives at their house late..last friday she went home at 12am..tama ba naman yun?the fact that she didn't even asked permission to her parents..tapos magagalit sya pag sinaway xa..tsktsk..marami ng nakakapansin sa pagbabago nya..
before hindi s'ya makabasag pinggan pero ngayon halos nakawala s'ya lagi sa hawla nya..hindi naman strict parents nya..*rolleyes*

oh well,bahala na..i've said enough to her..its up to her kung itutuloy nya ung pag-uugali nyang hindi tama..basta i've done my part as her "bEstfRieNd"...

oh anyways,finals na namin this week...haaii..1st test pa namin is math,cle and computer..nag-review na ko..hekhek..i wanna maintain my qualifier status kasi eh..

ohh..i took a quiz from quizilla

What attracts people to you?
brought to you by Quizilla

2005-03-05T22:02:00.000-08:00

im a bummer all day!i didn't go out..kirstin invited me to join her pamangkin's 1st bday at quezon ave. but i did not go because i don't wanna go somewhere else...hahaha..tinatamad ako eh!=p

oh anyways,andrew called!..oh yes,im blabbing his name nah..lolx
so eon,he called..nung una ayaw nyang magsalita pero nagsalita din xa..tapos he didn't speak again so binababa ko na lang yung phone(bad girl)..after 15 minutes..i txted him sb ko "bkt ka 2mwg?lm ko kw un nabosesan kta"..and then his reply was wala daw cyang magawa and he's missing me na daw..tpos mine was "ah ok...so msta ka naman?"
tpos he didn't replied nah..tapos nag-ring yung phone..it was him..
were acting and talking as if nothing happened..oh yea,he's a bit insenitive that's why..uggghhh..i don't wanna blab the whole conversation no more..

about my dillema wid my bestfriend..oh well,bahala na si Lord..it's up to him na..He'll take care of my bestfriend naman eh..
and i think i really did my part..basta dito lang ako kahit matigas ulo nya..hehehe..what are bestfriends are for?=p

2005-03-04T21:48:00.000-08:00

we had our first friday mass..we didn't had our english period..=p
how i wish laging walang english,hahaha..bad girl!=)

anyways,i don't bother myself anymore thinking of him,it's just a waste of my time..yes i do miss him sometimes..i miss those times he calls me "pot"..the way he used to tease me..the way he laughs at me..her txt msgs and phone calls from him..but at least im living my everyday life as if i never known him..=p

oh well,speaking of txt msgs from him...he miscalled me last night..i asked him y he miscalled me..but not unlike before..sinungitan ko s'ya and sinadya ko yun..tapos he asked me bat ko daw ang sungit ko na ngayon,kung galit ba daw ako sa kanya..sabi ko hindi and why should i in the first place?..got no right to be mad at him..(but honestly yes im mad at him..umm well,not that much)

what else?ayun..about abby,she's oh so different..she's not my bestfriend i used to know..nagbago na talaga s'ya simula nung nasama xa sa wicked witch sa life ko..lolx..well,everybody can attest to that...i had done my part as her bestfriend..pinagbawalan ko na s'ya..i guided her..iniwas ko na sya but still she doesn't listen..ang tigas talaga ng ulo nya..tapos ngayon her mom and her are not in good terms at ang sinisisi nya is yung nanay nya?!oh well,mother knows best..no mom wants her child to be in trouble diba?..just because napagsabihan sya na iba-ibang lalake ang kasama nya..na 3rd year pa lang sya paiba-iba na sya ng boyfriend..duh!totoo naman..oh well,i can blame abby,she's really one of the campus crush but sana naman diba?!

if something bad happens to her di ko lang alam kung ano pa gagawin ko..and if one day she'll come to me crying because of her studpidity..i'll be the first one to get mad at her..or laugh at her maybe??masama na kung masama..pero lahat kaming mga "matitino" nyang kaibigan nagawa na yung part namin para lang mapabuti sya pero sya pa rin nagmamatigas..ang tigas talaga ng ulo nya!

2005-03-02T20:02:00.000-08:00

i miss this thing called blogging..=p
anyways,this past few days,life isn't working that nice for me as it was before...and yeah,im really bothered because of that little damn twit!and i swear..im mad..

remember the guy i mentioned during my last post??damn..i feel he used me..arrrgghh..he confessed his feelings for me..that he loves me..blah blah..and then all of a sudden nalaman ko na he got his girl nah?shit!!..i wish he hadn't confessed his feelings for me so it hasn't to be this way..i mean why do he have to tell me those shit lies when all of a sudden he'll get his girl??..oh well,he's just a waste of my precious time,but i got really upset..
i didn't knew that he would do those shitty craps..and yes im hurt..
don't blame me guys,even me,i dunno why im feeling this way..he's not my boyfriend anyways,but for all i know he confessed his feelings for me,he told me that it's for real..and yeah..its a real crap..hahaha..just wait for the karma baby!^_^

anyways,next week will be our finals and im going to be a busy student again..hehehe..scanning notebooks..making reviewers,memorizing important terms..and all other things normal student would do during examination week..and besides i really want to maintain my qualifier status..=p

and yes,school year's gonna end soon..our last day will be on the 18th..and i swear..im gonna miss my classmates..='(
but on the other hand im happy because i don't have to wake up at 5:30pm anymore..hehehe..i can get so much sleep as i want to..i'll be having my vacation at Batangas,bonding time with my cousins again..yeeyyy..at last all of us will going to be together again..

anyways,gotta end it here..ciao!*hugs everyone*