because of you feat.kelly clarkson____

Sunday, July 30, 2006

:) or :s

Prelims are over,I'm just waiting for the results.I swear,I'm not loving my course--Nursing.
Umiral lang ang pagiging good girl ko that's why I took up Nursing because that's what my mom want,but aside from me not liking it, I'm really having a hard time coping up in Chemistry which is my major subject. I'm not that A student,I'm just an average student who happens to belong to the 3rd honor qualifier during my high school years but I swear,I'm doing my best but my best is really not enough. *sighs*

I think of shifting my course to MedTech which is somewhat related to Nursing.
Nursing course in Trinity needs to have at least 2.00 GWA which is difficult for me to achieve since I don't even like my course,wtf!I can't even imagine myself wearing that blue milkmaid uniform,ack!

Before taking up entrance examinations last school year,I really wanted to take up a course that suits my personality which is 'madaldal' and could showcase what I love to do--writing.
I love writing,I used to be a correspondent in our school paper during my last 2 years in high school and our school guidance councilor back in high school told me that I should take up Journalism or any course that could showcase my writing capabilities or my being 'madaldal'.

Should I or should not?shift course,that is.
______________________________________________

I just came home from Batangas with my family just this afternoon.
Yesterday,I'm with my cousins,Keng and Karlo heading at Arvy's house and guess who I saw?
It was him, Kevin (now I can blab his name), upon seeing me he hid at his brother's back and I heard his barkada and kuya teasing him "Kevin,ba't ka nagtatago?wala namang kakain sayo".
Maybe he thought I will come up to him and slap his face,LOL.
But I won't even waste my time for him.Actually,I didn't mind him,as in deadma. :p

But this morning,a news came to me that his grandmother passed away just this morning,
I should have visited their family along with my dad since his dad and my dad are friends and his dad is my ninong and his ate is the 'inaanak' of my dad.(what a small world noh?)
But we didn't because it was raining hard and were already off here in Manila.

Eventhough I'm mad at him,I feel sorry for him losing his lola,I know how much he loves his lola,I've seen that even were still together.Too bad,I can't comfort him in these times,I know how much he is hurting.I just wish that his 'girlfriend', Angel is there for him. *sighs*
My prayers are for his family and of course for him,he's been a part of my life for a year and half tho'.I still care for him but I'm moving on. :))

----------------------------

Happy Birthday to my ever dearest cousin.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY Christ Jean Salazar. :))

@8:18 PM

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

Because of You .

I have made a new layout.The lyrics of the song is kinda sad and the colors are not happy. =x
I hope this would be my last rambling about you. *crosses fingers*

_______________________________________________________________

Because of You I have learned to laugh again and smile again.
I have learned that not all guys are insensitive and liar. I have learned to trust again with all of my heart.
You made me feel how is it to be a princess in my own fairytale, that I have my own
happy ever after ending.

But not to soon, you destroyed my own little fairytale. You have let Cinderella be in her ragged clothes again.
You let my evil step sister be a hindrance in my happily ever after story.
The wicked evil step sister has gotten all of you from me.

Because of you I learned not to trust others again.
Because of you I believed that love can never be fair.
You took away my princess' dream. You have let me live in a lie.
Because of you I, again is drowned in pain.
Tears welled down from my eyes suffering from grief and sadness.

You didn't taught me how to say the word "goodbye".
You never showed me the way back on my 'old world' where I used to live peacefully.
Because of you I don't know now how to be happy again.
Because of you I lost my confidence in myself.
Because of you I learned to hate myself which seems to be not good.
Because of you I don't let anyone to wipe away the tears that you caused.

Everytime I think of her with you,its killing me.
I can't be saved from the loneliness I feel.
I hate myself for losing you although you seem to be happy with her.

Because of you hatred is eating all of me.
Because of you loneliness is all what I feel.
Because of you I had sleepless nights.
Because of you I never played with my pet dog again.
Because of you I never loved color blue again.
Because of you my life is now incomplete.

Because of you I am afraid to LOVE again. =(

@8:18 PM

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

Bestfriend's dayout

I met with my besfren,Angelo at Gateway. We agreed last night that we would meet up and have lots of kwentuhan. I have no class naman today so we met up at around 4 in the afternoon. He took a cab ride from UST to Gateway.[mayaman ang intsik.LOL]

Ayun,ang tangkad na niya. He stands 6 foot tall. Ang liit ko nga kanina nung nakapila kami sa KFC eh.
I really had fun with him, sobrang na-miss ko yung kakulitan niya and of course he, himself. =)
He looked so thin in his uniform, ang laki kasi ng uniform niya kaya mas lalo s'ya naging payat. =p

He's the special man in my life aside from my dad. He knows everything about me, just one look in my eye, he already knows what I'm thinking of and what I'm currently feeling.
He's the first one to know about what that dork has done unto me.
Eventhough he's pilyo, always teasing me (that's one of his hobby,LOL) I know that he really cares for me because it shows naman eh. I've found a kuya-slash-bestfriend in him. I love him sooooo.

And my besh, Hannah is really lucky to have someone like my besfren and vice versa.

who won't love him eh?=)

@6:27 PM